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i mean think about all the cool people in your life that influence you in the best of ways ,who are there when you need em and make you laugh when your sad and sometimes i don't think we cherish those ppl enough and actually tell them so every now and then iv gota poor my heart out to my friends and shmoos them up about how amazing they are :D! i have some realllllly awesome people in my life and im so very thankful for them i would not be who i am today with out them i would not have the grate memories i have with out them

Im relatively board i dont feel like drawing its 3:48in the morning my mind is quite awake questioning lifes ethics and missing him but ik he cares not i feel poetic but i dont feel like writing poerty: / what a splurge hm

Man i cant sleep it sucks eh :/

man loving is hard some times i love this boy to death and ik he loves me i just wished i was to him what he was to me were like two different species its like caring is not in his human nature its so strange but the monster in him is = to the monster in me and i guess the fact that he loves me as me make me love him all the more but hes made me in to a different person im not so sure i like and hes not gonna fill this emptiness because its simply not who he is and i exspet that....

eh i dont understand my body one min im hellla tired next im up like ate five lbs of sugar the even more annoying part is that it wanted to be sleepy whilel i was trying to talk with b i only really get to talk to him a lil bit in the morning and right before bed so thats annoying so now im upppppppppppp oh yey i guess well today i learned when at a mechanic shop dirty jokes r a must and ten times funny man ya that all i really learned today oh that im different in a fairly good way

Today my day has started off quite nicely got my usal good day txt from my awesome friend then hand an ily from b which is sweet its nice to know hes sum whar thinking about me he also sent me a gm txt that was uber happy and stuff was cute. Then my awesome friend sent me a poem to read and prefect or what ever but i liked it just the way it was it was short but good i dont normally care much for poetry i can write it fairly well but its just not somthing im in to reading . Any way then i went to get foodiesss and my stupid tumm messed thst up stupid tummy but over all i like the start of my day and the ppl who make it sweeter every day

ya know despite the rules and stuff i fairly like being a teen age-er i fing love food and my friends and the lazyness yet random energenicness and i enjoy the experiences that come with all the wonderful ppl i get to meet and spend a good potion of my schooling years with and i honestly can say i love learning some times ic get crappy instructors but i think at some point we all do and it further teaches us how to deal with certin kinda of ppl throught out life as much as ppl are like fuck school its more important than alot of us even know sure there are some things were not gonna use every thing we learned but tthaTS life if you ask ,me i personally loveeeeee knowledge and learning but i forever doubt i will beable to grasp the consept of grammar and writing idk why but that is my main fault im fucking awesome at math not half bad a social studies art is a no brainier science is eh but i like it but i really enjoy being a teen age-er its fun :)

sadly enought im refuring to my cat (i swar im not a cat lady) iv had kiri sence i was like 9 so thats a good bout to be 8 years he like my life companion ya know who ever one always has that one pet that was reallly like there best friend and was more close than any others well hes that pet for me the old perv lol gosh if he were a person i can only image how interesting hed realllly be hes an aqll white short haired kitty with green eyes hes a compleat fatty now but i like the size he is hes as close to a lion as im gonna get haha .i love the was he makes a pouty face when i cuddle him like hes mad but hes puring the holeee time :D hes a good cat for the most part he likes being petted and hes fairly loud ... hes awesome shortly putt i was looking at Hiroshima my fish well me an brendans fish but this fish dosent care for me much as all he just wants to be fed and kept alive whichis a shame im use to having fun relationships with my beta fish iv had 3 be for all killed by my family mebers .. :( and they were happy good fish hm ya im not huge on animals but i do like them i cant weight till i can get a snake though!!!!!!!! when i get my own place im aloud to get my own snake :] which i plan on doingg so .gr n9ow iv got kitty furs all over me thats the one really suck part i wear 75% black on a dayly basis and he always wants to be cuddly in the morning when im trying to get ready to go lol

i dont dream all to often any more so its ten times more intresting when i do earlyer i was trying to sleep and dosed off for a bit and had a weird dream or nightmar i guess tecnly so i was going to get somthing outa the storage room of our house sept this wasnt my house cause i had to go out side on a porch and tit was mad dark i had my phone with me can tried to use it for light but wasn't working at the time i felt the weird feeling of i better hurry and turn a light on or what ever is in lurking in the dark is gonna get me so i rushed to the door blindly and felt for it i guess i was worried about falling off the edge of the porch cause i was clinging to the was as i felt for the door handle i got it open and the light switch was in side i frantically felt for the switch hit one (guess there was two)and it was one to activate the motion censer light out side and it flipped on and last thing i saw was looking over the brick wall staring a bit into the surrounding darkness and then i woke bk up like i said i dont dream often any more and normally my dreams dont make much sense to begin with or its my head incorporating what ever i saw in the last five minuets be for i went to bed in to random thoughts i suppose dreaming over all is a weird experience for me i must say

I love when my sis brings me what ever candy im craving randomly home shes so sweet this time she brought me a big ass Hershey cookies and cream bar tiz tasty its little random things like this that make me smile nom nom nommmm im watching the twilight zone one if the episodes was actualy scary =//.O= then one was reallly sweet idk what this ones gonna end up as i wish the day would speed up cause im ready to go to beddd lol idk what ima do with myself today hm its to hot to be out side prehaps finish or try to finish up fixing my room up i dont rember having sooo many damn glow in the dark stars and my stupidly tall celing.... eh being short sucks sometimes .intresting how when ppl go bk in time they have already done so befir so what ghey think they r changing has alread or will already happened we can never change the popast

The Arizona sun rize is quite pretty to day decided im just gonna stay up and try to get bk on a normal sleep time .:p. So what to dooo to pass the time read a book i suppose and mess around on here this week is gonna be long cause i normally hang out with b but fucking band camp.. eh yey for the last marching band season! But its important i support him tiz my job as his girlfriend:) and i love nothing more than to be there for my baby yup yup any whoi think ill go Barry my nose in a book

im oh so happy i found this web site lol although i can bet you my alowence is gonna be gone pretty quick haha this is like the cheapo price for a corset everrr there like 20$ but u get the skirt part with it too because of how far i live shipping is like 13$ so over all like 34 $ still not bad cause normally there run like 60 bucks and up plusee they have reallllly cute oness heres the web address btw http://www.corsetdeal.com/ i have nothing els to do right now cause i slept all day becuase of the pain medication soooo ima be up for a while ill at least get to tell b to have a good day at band camp :) for the rest of the week he has to be there at like 8am so that meanes being up at like 7 am if not earlier cause he takes long ass showers ...never met a guy that took longer than i did to shower... its not like he has to shave his legs or any thing lol wooooo im boreddd :(

as much as i dont want kids theirs always that wanting to share that kinda thing with the person you love thing you know me and b wer in the car with his parents on the road trip and his dad turned around and said they were gonna be the worst grand parents and spoil our kid rotten ... so now i feel like they want a grand kid and b is their only kid .... so now it seems even more like an obligation but me and b already agreed that we dont want kids but if i was ever gonna have a kid id want it to be his but i like some kids im more than down to adopt a kid at sum point but i still have the hole happy family life track set but not really i guess well see how that all works out when i travel down those paths in life but for now ill just keep y head in the books :D

man i cant weight till y besty gets home then were gonna get r ears pierced she her seconds and mine my thirds then on my birthday like 24 days after i get my nose and belly button pierced :D im exciteddddddd hehe yeyyy man two more weeks then i start senior year yeahhh buddy gonna make this a year to remember ! GO HARD OR GO THE FUCK HOMEEEEE sorry thats a bit much lol cant weight till college lol surprisingly im not a partyer

Spent. The day with B we naped together for a few hour's. Was awesome who needs a blanket when iv got my human heater boy lol then we watched fear factor for a while, tickle fights cuddling. We had dinner and cuddled some more now i smell like his guy perfume. It smells grateee i love it hehehe lol he gets to smell like my cotten candy perfume :)

So this is gonna be my and alota my friends will be graduating then sum off to college snd sum off to thr marines my forever crush and friend Garrett and tynen. But tynen is an underclass men so hes got one more year but ima write them when the go in the marines: )

I love siting in my window seal with the window open feeling the rain kiss my exsposed skin sending bitter sweet tingles over my skin the air so warm and the rain like ice i love to watvh it cover the world i love monsoon season.

Every word of every song dose more that turn on my emotions i admit im a delicate emotional creature i cant help my nature but to want to love and help and feel the pain of those around me. But not often to i feel my own pain and happyness i can understand just about any one but am rarely understood, he sings his songs like he knows me inside and out i never feel more emotion than when im held captive the meaningless ly deep words of his songs he says nothing wrong his voice is my sanctuary. Where is the love in a lap dance?

To be honest i think a vampire web site is sill its really just for those who wish to be part of something that could never be or perhaps i just live by old morals hm but i just think its a bit silly byt what do i really know im nothing but a young silly girl iv been stuck Watching vamp movies all day hm i should eat. Stupid body needing food mentally im not hungry much my friend said dose god not live on earth becaue ge fears what he created

Iv never really one to lie i do teLL white lies but i still try my best not to i wanna say i dont see the point in lyy. Lying but really i do i wish there wasnt a need to but lie but ik thats. Not how life works its a shame the way life works vut ill just try my best to make life aas good as i possibly can

Guess i nerded a nap cause her i am up kinda wish id slept the holenight oh well i have Stupid lyrics stuck in my head lol. Yuppp

My title has nothing to do wif this entry lol,really i was just gonna say art makes me feel good,i looked at my wall witb my most resent drawing and it made me smile i haven't put many of my drawings up sense we moved in to the new house in the old house i didnt have room on my walls causr my drawings covered the walls

Tell me what you’re made of..

I’m made of innocence

What you’re afraid of

I’ll make it disappear

Beautiful scars don’t last forever

Come on, let me kiss it better

The pain won’t last forever

Come on, let me kiss it better



Your perfect the way you are

I wanna hold your suffering in my arms

They’re talkin’ & they’re talkin’ but they make no sound

Whatever you do don’t let them break you down

You’re perfect you’re perfect you’re perfect.. the way you are



They make you wanna self destruct

and become someone else

And when it feels like it's too much

Baby don’t hurt yourself



Beautiful scars don’t last forever

Come on, let me kiss it better

The pain won’t last forever

Come on, let me kiss it better



Your perfect the way you are

I wanna hold your suffering in my arms

They’re talkin’ & they’re talkin’ but they make no sound

Whatever you do don’t let them break you down

You’re perfect you’re perfect you’re perfect.. the way you are



Don’t you see.. don’t you see…

You’re P E R F E C T



Kiss it better…





(these are lyrics to the song kiss it better by jeffree star this is how i feel toward so many wonderful ppl in my life)

Iv never felt so sleepyyyy i dont wanna get outa bed bla but i wanna eat haha didny dream ,not uncommen foe me my bed is so comfyyyy,i think i like beeing a teenager quite well i love the dorky aspects. Should fin breakfast. Hm

I smell yummy now, yey for random hot bubble baths at 3am lol. I think tonight ba as sleepless at last night with out the crappy feeling so tiz a plus:) i so softttttt i had to make sure my legs were exstra soft sense im swimming wif b tomorrow:) yey swimming. Hm im rather thirsty. I dont wanna drink waterrr but my body seems to want water:P CAUSE THE MUSIC MAKES ME FEEL GOOD WHEN I SEE THAT LOOK ON YOUR FACE LISTEN TO THAT BASSS BASS BASSSSSS!! this shirt is comfyyyy hmmmm what should i wearr tomorrowwwwww hmm idk wub wub wub hydukinnnnnnnn

So on my way home i found myself. Looking at cars and car parts then when i got home took off my hells and cute ofit three on his basketball shirts and a tang top pulled my hair in to s side pony and ate din and drank my mountin dew ,noticing these small details of my coming home i saw how much being with him has changed me in lil wayz im in to cars never cared much fir mountain dew at all now given the choice id chose it and didnt care much for videogames now i actally can distinguishe them and know little bits and pecies i like Watching ppl play them nit me play them lol him and my wife got me into basketball shorts i dont wear sweat pants so they r like my sweat pants lol hes took on my music taste more than i his. Its funny what love will do to ya. Not just love though its even the ppl u spend alota time with like my wife(best friend) iv rubed off on that girl sooo much its crazy mostly in good wsys sh has a tendancy to twist my pholosphy sum times though :/ but its cause r minds arnt compleatly alike we have the best cgemical reaction its amamazinggg

Just home from chilling wif my babe,god theres nothing better than riding with him in the car, music loud bass hard ah amazing! Decided id dress like a hoy gf today lol i like going out with him cause i can dress hot and im his girl i dress rather atractivly on a regular basis but im not one of those sluty type all the goods r covered appropriately. Sep i like.a bit of clevage any way had a fun time its funny when we're a part we r unhappy but once together its like all the shit never happened interesting how that works

Im so cold, funny how im cold and live in az,Stupid lack of body heat.. idk why im awake figured id sleep longer sence i was up till 6am i dont know how today is gonna go between me and him... its so cold.. im so cold. Really my room is fine but with my lack of body heat and i can't keep heat well over all it sucksss buttt. U still feel slightly sick to my tummy from last night eh any way i decided. That when my friend Garrett gose to the marines after we graduate im going to write him letters and send him care packages:) i dont think hell ever know how much i care but its ok: ) hell always be my crush but never my love. When ever we hang out he makes it known that braking up with me was a mastake but i dont hold it agenst him it wasnt horrible or any thin

i feel bad if that intreaged you to read my nonsense im just feling the music flowww lol i love nerdyness nothin better than a geeky guy ,geeky girls are usaly bitchessss ahh this guys rapping about playing zelda but its sexy hahah ima dork and btw im not saying all smart girls r bitches just alot are as far as iv come acrosst but im not gonna automatically think that of some one until they show me thats who they are im just aware of 8certain ppl i guess NO GAME OVERRRRRRRR *SAVE* this kids got talent i must say hmmmm man i miss my wifeeeee (aka my best friend) i cant wait for her to come bk homeeeeeeeeeee wubbb im not quite sure what els to say sep im sorry for the poor soul that read my random bs

finished up moping took a cold shoower too cool down now its chill time .watching my sis baby man the kid is growing like a weed but much cuter and honorary eh my mucles are sore blaa that msg limit thingy went away yeyyyyyy i want this songggggggg late night nachosss yummyyy

hear are the lyrics but it really only sounds cool if you heare the song i supose wubbbbb





losst in the woods rapped by none like josha and its dub step yeyyyyyyy



Running through the woods

And without a map

Listen to the sounds

I found a trap

Got my sword and ocarina

To fend off hordes of awful demons

If you gonna think you can get through me

Then you can get on my deku seeds

And deku stick, I beat you with

Ya'll are fake, I see you in my

Lens of truth

Then I grew

Into a man

With the song of time

Song of time?

- That's my jam

Make it rain Rupees cause I can

Look at all my clothes, you say I'm flossing

Red, Blue, Green to slay the bosses

- And I love these hoes

Zelda and Saria yo

Ganondorf ain't got this swag

Light arrows go in his ass

Watch me pass

On my ride

Got my Epona tonight

Zombies in the Hyrule field

without a shield Now to deal

my hookshot!

Din's fire looking hot!

Running through the woods

And without a map

Listen to the sounds

I found a trap

Fairies what I should've got

Man, these hearts are not enough

Make it rain with stormy songs

Owl is talking way too long

Hurry up! No time to chat

Cause I got a deadline to find my way back.

Minus the fact I got my keys

make it to the next room, lost for weeks

Watching me

Like Poe's ghost

Bout to kill the boss, I'm so close

Now I am defending

The Kingdom from the henchmen

I want it on my pendant

The Triforce on my necklace

Lost in the woods

I Thought I could

Find a way out

Any day now

I Take a left

I Take a right

I Take a step

I see the light

Navi says to

Running through the woods

And without a map

Listen to the sounds

I found a trap

Bouncing back, no game over

Yeah you know bombing all these big ass boulders

- I got milk

From a talking cow

I once helped

- Malon and myself

To be a notch on my belt

Killing all these spiders

My Rupees getting higher

My boomerang is awesome

I'm shooting all these goblins

With my slingshot.

I'm Link on the

brink of

finding shiek

My name is known all across the earth

From Lake Hylia to Gerudo desert

You knew I'm better

Nabooru wants me

I sure am hungry

For magic beans

It's sad to see

Me owning all these

Zombies and the

Shadow beasts

Come out at night

Along with dogs

Which one is right?

I'm good to fight

My kicks will let me float on air

Nike flights

Running through the woods

And without a map

Listen to the sounds

I found a trap

I'm about to snap

I feel the power

Spin around once

You're going downwards

- Don't mess with me

My master sword

Is the best you see

My energy is 30 hearts

So we got a long time

Before I start

- You're testing me?

Bombchu coming at your feet

About to get the mask you see

I got the stone of agony

I'm glad to be your majesty

The hero of the odyssey

Death mountain isn't this hot

Medallions on my wristwatch

Lost in the woods

I Thought I could

Find a way out

Any day now

I Take a left

I Take a right

I Take a step

I see the light

ehh i dont ;ike this damn 30 msg limit per 24 hr time period its messing up my perfectly good conversations ehh and im past a level 4... awww kissy part in movie cuteeee any way today has been a bit disappointing but i think im making some new friends thats the hope at least its kinda hot right nowwww ohh i found a reallly grate site to buy corsets for a considerably low price im quite excited iv picked out this very cute black one

i fing love panic at the disco thire music makes everything feel better some times it makes me cry but thats cause my own memories i guess

one of my fav songs

"The Calendar"



(Only for you

Only for you)



It's said if you don't let it out

You're gonna let it eat you away

I'd rather be a cannibal, baby

Animals like me don't talk anyway



Feel like an ambulance

Chaser of faith

Pray I could replace her

Forget the way her tears taste

Oh, the way her tears taste



Put another X on the calendar

Summer's on its deathbed

There is simply nothing worse

Than knowing how it ends

And I meant everything I said that night

I will come back to life

But only for you

Only for you



The world may call it a second chance

But when I came back it was more the relapse

Anticipation's on the other line

And obsession called while you were out

Yeah, it called while you were out



Put another X on the calendar

Summer's on its deathbed

There is simply nothing worse

Than knowing how it ends

And I meant everything I said that night

I will come back to life

But only for you

Only for you



Asleep in the hive

I guess all the buzzing got to me

Well, I'm still alive

At night your body is a symphony

And I'm conducting



It's said if you don't let it out

You're gonna let it eat you away



Put another X on the calendar

Summer's on its deathbed

There is simply nothing worse

Than knowing how it ends

And I meant everything I said that night

I will come back to life

But only for you

Only for you

Only for you

Only for you

Only for you

Only for you

so to day i finally got my registrations papers im excited for my senior oh high school still got college to look forward to yey pilot training eh any way im gonna make this year something to remember plus ill be in year book think ima join the math guild i know it sounds nerdy but i like math and geeks so yeahh i already made my sign to ask my best girl friend to winter formal ima do it over face book cause shes a facebook aholic im excited plus i got prom this year with brendan

Our bodies no longer seem in tune the notes I play he can not hear. His mind iz blank thiz I fear. Our eyes meet yet all we see iz each others reflection our smiles in complete in hopes we hold on hoping our love iz not at defeat. Thiz battle I fight. ... We fight yet he iz un awear my tactics are useless for how can I defeat something that iz not there ? To ask what he iz thinking tends to have no point rarely. When he thinks hiz thoughts are sad. Despite the efforts his tears seem to never end I want to make him happy un tell his end. I want to see hiz smile. Hear hiz laughter. I crave his love and well being and happiness but these thought of his. They never

completely leave ! I stab and I stab yet its as if they don't bleed! In my heart I grow tired but never enough to quit. My pride iz to big as iz my love. For

him I shall keep trying. I won't wish I might hope. But I will believe in this sad thought defeat

i feel like a complete noob i cant seem to figure out how to get a bk round for my profile so i dont even seem presentable there is soooo much stuff to be donneeeeeee gr im utterly lost . on the bright side i ate oreos and millk for breakfast hehe .hm im not sure if i want to put what i am in my description or not caause i guess to me it dosent matter what any one really is its who they are that counts yes yes . i think ima ask the next person for help innsted of just being hard headed and thinking i can do it my self :p

I dont feel like writing poetry at the moment. Im more in the mood to sit and watch the train go by so i can get my squished pennys hm this sight is quite. Idk there is so much to be done levels,horno,mentors and such not im a bit flaborgasted and cant seem to upload a photo ,im lost hm guess ill keep wandering about