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Whilst I did not watch any videos about vtubing and webcomic making, I did watch many videos about the goth subculture. I, myself, fall into the hippy goth, romantic goth, vampire goth, Victorian goth and medieval goth subgroups I do still enjoy learning about the other goth subgroups and the history of the subculture. I also enjoy learning about ways to make my wardrobe more androgynous.

I was able to draw up basic sketches for character designs for my comic. I did two different ones whilst doing laundry: a human one and an alicentaur (alicorn/centaur) one. I used these designs for my five main characters. Once they're colored I plan to send them to my Discord group chat to get their final opinions before drawing up individual reference sheets. I will do the line art tomorrow before bed and the coloring on Wednesday.

I also made sure I studied Wicca last night. I reread and underlined one chapter of my book. Eventually, I will replace it since Blue spilled a drink on it. Once I am able to replace it I will also make sure to purchase a blank notebook for all of my notes.

I've finally begun reading the Hamlet book my husband has. I've been wanting to read it ever since I found out he had it but I never made the time to. It has extra stuff added by the author so I read one chapter. I will make time every night when I wake up to study Wicca, and every morning before bed to read Hamlet.

My husband and I didn't watch anymore My Hero Academia as he was too tired to and I didn't play anymore Luigi's Mansion 3. I did, however, watch another cartoon from my childhood purely for nostalgia's sake. I also messaged my Discord group chat to annouce my return. I will not tell my two influencer friends (rickyovhell and thegothkingofficial on TikTok) that I have returned as I wish to surprise them on their lives.

All in all, this break was much needed and did me a lot of good. I feel much calmer and more relaxed. I will definitely be setting aside a weekend out of every month to turn off my phones, relax, and stay off my main social media.

(A/N: This was from a journal entry I wrote yesterday before bed. I started typing it last night but then I had to leave for work.)

I watched some more videos about vtubing and webomic making. I was even able to finish the art piece I was making for my husband (I do wish I had better colored pencils though) and give it to him. He like it and pinned it on the wall above his computer. I also spent more time playing with Blue.

My husband and I also watched more My Hero Academia, I think we're on season seven now. Season six was hella sad, though, I think my husband and I cried way more than we wanted to watching it. I'm almost scared to start season seven...

I didn't read, work on my comic, or study Wicca but I did get back into Luigi's Mansion 3 (priorities, right?)! So far I've found Professor E. Gadd, gotten buttons 1 and 5 off of the bellhop, and Professor E. Gadd's briefcase and button 3 off of the maid. I'm gonna read, make the basic sketches for my comic characters, and study Wicca while I do laundry tonight. I'm also gonna see if I can't find someone else in Luigi's Mansion 3.

Last night, I was able to watch three videos about making a webcomic: one about character creation, one about the basics of making a webcomic, and the last about promoting and monetizing the comic. I also worked on the line art for an art piece I'm making for my husband for his Valentine's Day gift. I did the basic sketch for it yesterday before bed. It took a minute and I scrapped the original sketch because I couldn't get the poses right.

I was able to watch the newest Hazbin Hotel VRChat video. It was very funny and entertaining, and I was able to keep my mind off everything. This channel always used to make me laugh before I started doing lives and ignoring it.

I had brought Blue out for a little bit and we were jumping around and play fighting. I had her laughing and she had me laughing, too. I had to give her bath because she got a little dirty. She wasn't happy but she needed it.

After I put Blue back in her cage, my husband and I binged some episodes of My Hero Academia and cuddled in bed. A couple new seasons came out on Crunchyroll a couple months ago and we wanted to watch them together since we both like the series. Before with work and TikTok, it felt like I never had time to watch it. Now, I'm gonna pull up my Google calendar and schedule out everything and make time to do things with my husband.

After he went to sleep, I grabbed some food and put on some random YouTube videos. When I was done, I grabbed my laptop and checked all of my lesser known socials and made some journal/blog posts. I even put on an old cartoon from childhood both for the nostalgia and because I like the art style the characters are drawn in and I'm hoping to study it and take inspo from it, especially when it comes to the female characters.

Lastly, I took a relaxing shower and watched a couple videos about vtubing. I didn't read, study Wicca or work on my comic so I'm gonna try and do those tonight. Maybe I'll even do some chores

I've begun my healing journey. This past week or so I've been feeling depressed, anxious, angry and burnt out. I think it's a mix of juggling multiple different responsibilities at work, coming home to immediately start recording content, and taking care of Blue (my ferret). Not only that, but since December I've been doing guest lives on TikTok. It first started with just speaking on a now close friend of mine lives. Then, I started adding more and more and now I occasionally make guest appearances on one of my favorite goth influencer's lives. I've also began doing my own lives!

It's gotten to the point that whenever I log on to TikTok that was all I was doing. From the second I wake up to the second I go to bed, I was on lives even at work. All day and night I was getting messages like, "XYZ, invites you their live" or "XYZ, invites you to join as guest!" Yes, I would wake up to these messages!

For over a month, I was being pulled left and right doing these lives. So, the other day I decided I needed a break. I texted both of my close friends (which does include the aforementioned goth influencer) and the Discord group chat I have with three other girls I met from his lives, telling them I would be gone for a few days to work on my mental health. I also messaged my TikTok family's Discord server and loosely explained to the founder that I would be gone. I also explained to my friends that I did not want to be messaged and if anyone did message me I would not be held responsible if I exploded on them. Fortunately, they all understood and assured me they would give me my space and let others know I would be gone and to not message me.

Originally, I wanted yesterday to be my last day of just scrolling on TikTok but since I called into work I decided to just start. I turned off both of my phones (yes, I have two) and handed them to my husband, asking him to put them somewhere until Monday, explaining that I needed a break from them. It's gonna be difficult since they're practically superglued to my hands and I'm so social media obsessed, but it's necessary.

This weekend I just wanna focus on myself, my husband and our pets. The only time I will ever use a screen is to learn about things I want to do (making a webcomic, vtubing, content creation), watching YouTube channels I enjoy (Hazbin Hotel VRChat), planning and working on my comic, reading on Webtoons, watching tv (by myself or with my husband), and checking my lesser known socials (such as here).

Other than that, I just wanna work on my artwork, practice drawing, get back into my games, read and continue learning about Wicca. Over the weekend I will be detailing journey on here, a couple of my other socials, and in my physical diary.