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I am so utterly bored right now my mind is running about a hundred miles an hour. I can't hold a thought for more the a couple of seconds and can't really write about anything. You know since I have grown up I miss my days of being able to just kick it on friday and saturday nights. I have kids I have to find babysitters for and as far as drinking goes I really don't drink much and when I do I can't let myself get drunk. You know I worry constantly about stuff happening to my kids. I feel like sometimes I am not letting them be kids. So since I am afraid that one of them will get sick and I have to run to the hospital there is no drunk for me. I have fun for awhile in the bars but you know I can't drink much and then I end up getting bored. LOL I enjoy reading and that seems about all I do anymore. Right at this moment I wish I was 19 again nothing to worry about just good times. Now don't get me wrong I wouldn't ever give up my kids cause they are the best thing in my life but damn i want to have some fun. I live with someone that won't drink so I can drink and it really sucks. The new year has started out really bad for me and I am hoping that soon it will get better. I am stuck at a job here that kinda sucks because it is in a hotel. I want an office job or something that I can make some good money at. I don't hate the hotel but I just don't make enough money.

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moonkissed
03:20 Jan 16 2009

boy oh boy do i know how you feel about the job and all. the place i worked at for 8 years was a prison and an escape. i didn't dare take time off unpaid because the economic balance is to fragile. that place was haunted too, frighteningly so.

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