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However I always say never....everyday when I wake up -
"Never give up".
Some mumbo jumbo I say...
love... learn, believe, laugh out loud, family, stop and smell the flowers, give back, look at your cup as half full instead of half empty, listen to your inner voice, trust your instincts, never take the first punch, tell your momma first before someone calls to tell her...
soft kisses, butterfly kisses, hug like you mean it, growl like a bear when your embracing, say your sorry and mean it, always look at someone when you meet them, acknowledge people you pass.
say hello first, always kiss good night, good morning, good bye and hello when the person you LOVE comes home.
Love your mother and father they will always have your back, be kind to babies, animals all living and breathing things.
At night when looking at the stars know that each twinkle you see is a loved one whose passed saying hello, the falling star is momma saying good night.
Lay down outside and look at the clouds its amazing what you can see..
use your imagination, and never ever give up, follow your paths in life you might have to take many roads till you find the right one.
These are some things I say to my family and have taught them to believe in.
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.
You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.
You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.
When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.
Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.
There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.
The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.
Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.
Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.
In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby.
Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.
You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.
Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.
You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you.
You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile.
Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
I mean, getting in a car accident can be a random thing that happens to good or bad people. But regardless if you're good or bad, if you aim your car into on-coming traffic, something bad is going to happen.
Except for you, it was planned.
For someone else, it was random.
People die in natural disasters. It's not random - the Earth is doing its thing. The Sun is just doing its thing. We just can't predict it very well, so it seems random to us.
People do stupid things. It is well within their control, but not always predictable or controllable to those around them. To one, it is controlled will. To another, it is random.
Everything is a matter of perspective. People need more perspective.
What I personally experienced the other day…is that what I felt ?
Did someone send it ? Who was the creator of said energy?
I was speaking with several people during this experience, it was actually during one of my VR broadcasts…however I don’t believe this energy came from anyone in that conversation.
I believe that it was an ‘outsider’…if that’s what it was.
Sometimes I have doubt, sometimes I don't…
Was this completely unrelated, and I experienced a hot flash?? LMAO
Can someone send you ‘energy’ without being in your presence?
I had this recent experience where I felt a little ‘different’ for lack of a better word.
It was a definite tingle...the focus primarily in my chest/arms. I felt a moderate amt. of pressure in my chest, with a slight burning feeling that radiated to my neck/throat. My arms felt heavy…like they were made of led..that quickly developed into pins and needles. I did not feel nervous or scared, rather just going through the emotions. It only lasted a minute, and left as fast as it came.
I am not well versed on this, but what I do know is what I felt.
Whoever you were…thank you. If nothing else, it’s made me think.
i read somewhere that it is possible to share energy with people and take energy from people. even ifnot in the presence of that person. how true that is im not sure but theres lots of literature claiming it to be possible
You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; Trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.
What I find fascinating is that some people who believe that they are the "victim" in life.. are actually the ones that create the havoc and chaos in their life, as well as those surrounding. But we all know this...but the "fascinating" part...is that actually don't see it. They truly believe life's against them.
Do you really think that playing games, will keep your "friends" ??
Do you really think that someone enjoys you attempting to make them a foul? Playing up with character?
The lies the deceit seem to follow you, and stick to you like glue.
But seems I knew you a little better then you me...and that was my plan from the beginning.
I don't toot my own horn well, but I will say that in life I've always been a good judge of character, and you my 'friend' proved to me personally today, that you enjoy the chase & deception and you are the biggest game player around.
I saw through you from the start, but choose to ignore all the lies...I'm done.
I think a person's friendships and interpersonal relations are their own business. I do feel that a person has the right to their own feelings about a person. I however don't feel that it is appropriate to foist my own opinion of a person onto someone else.
Strangers are easier to share intimate details with because if they really are a stranger their opinion does not really matter. I may never see or speak to them again but at least I said or did what felt right to me.
So I sat for 2 days perfecting my online order...making everything perfect...choosing the font/color/images to portray me...and my personal photography style..to click order and have the site say..."nothing in cart".
Are you fucking kidding me? You have to do a 4 part series to place the order...and then the final stage it says that?
I did contact the site, they so nicely inform me that they lost several online account orders...and would I be so kind to re-order.
Talking this evening with a very close and dear friend…they really got me thinking about life.
Thinking about how 1 decides to express themselves…whether it be with journal entries, poetry…photos or music (just to name a few) here on the Rave.
I am very expressive; however I am the silent type. I am not the person that you will find sharing personal information with anyone.
I can still honestly say…that I don't think that I met the one person that I have completely opened up with…I still have my guarded walls. I think people believe I put them down, when in reality I leave them up…to see who cares enough to climb them. I thought I have, but looking back…I don't think know.
I am saying this looking back...that when I was in my relationships...I thought I had no walls...I gave all of me, to who I've "shared my bed with" and then some...but its my reflecting back..that makes me wonder, did I really bring them down? I don't honestly know.
I do however have to admit that when you’re on my ‘side of the wall’ you will always be there. I can’t LOVE someone one day, and not the next. It’s not in my vocabulary…lol
I don’t understand 1 day you can share your everything with someone, and have future plans then the next day, you are NOT even worth phone call…rather a message expressing how you’re not the one.
Who is this one?
I have given up guessing, or trying for that matter. Nothing can be forced or pushed…especially feelings/love.
If it was meant to be…it will happen whether you want it too or not.
I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason, and I might learn what lesson I was being ‘taught’ or I might not…but at the end of the day, I know that I am still me…I have my beliefs and I have the best family in the world.
Today was a pretty ok day...nothing out of the exception happened...planned a few shoots.
I am not a drinker...never have been, a drink here and there maybe...but today I was given a gift card as a "thank you" for my work...to a local liquor barn from a friend. So I went and grabbed a few Palm Bays...fuck these are yummy sissy drinks, lol.
no idea what in hell they are can look pwetty and shinyyyyyyyy
Tight Binding...
05:37 Mar 02 2012 Times Read: 1,712
I've been asked about my entry earlier today about "tight binding".
There are many forms of it...and these intricate designs amaze me.
I finally met a man, actually 2 that specialize in this, and we will be collaborating in the near future as I will be allowed to photograph their work.
I am VERY excited about this.
About Japanese Rope Bondage
Kinbaku (緊縛) means ‘tight binding Kinbaku-bi (緊縛美) which literally means ‘the beauty of tight binding’. Kinbaku (also Sokubaku, bakujojutsu, and senyojo jutsu) is a Japanese style of sexual bondage or BDSM which involves tying up the bottom using simple yet visually intricate patterns, usually with several pieces of thin rope–often jute and generally around 6 mm in diameter, but sometimes as small as 4mm, and between 7m-8m long). In Japanese, this rope is known as ‘asanawa’. The Japanese vocabulary does not make a distinction between hemp and jute. Dictionaries will usually translate the word ‘asa’ as hemp and ‘nawa’ as rope. However, this rope is not hemp rope, but jute rope: the allusion is to the use of hemp rope for restraining prisoners, as a symbol of power. In Japan very few bondage practitioners, if any, use hemp rope. Though jute and hemp may belong to the same family of fibers, and they both have good properties for holding knots and for not stretching, they do differ in looks, weight and especially in smell.
Here's 2 examples...(these images are NOT mine..there were obtained from google.)
Today being March 1st 2012, I am giving myself a personal challenge.
The challenge will be to post here EVERY day..
I can’t promise staggering topics or anything eye-opening or astonishing… but I’m doing this for me.
These next 30 days will lead up to something bigger then I have ever faced…
So today…
-It’s presently 0135 I am working, or hardly working atm;
- I am preparing to do several more photoshoots (I am a photographer) that involves a direction that I can see myself really enjoying.
- I finally located & spoke with a “rigger” who does the beautiful art of tight binding. To see the work of these riggers is truly amazing. I am looking forward to meeting these ‘boys’ and seeing just want it is they do..and to meet the models that have this amazing outlook of artwork. To put their bodies through this, and to be the centerpiece and to be the artwork itself, is truly talent.
- Realizing how special I am for having such amazing friends in my life. Almost complete strangers who have found their way into my heart. You can always tell someone cares/loves you by the way they treat you.
- Today was my 'work husbands' 1st shift back to work after nearly 1 month of him being 'fired' without just cause. I/we fought..and won!
- I’ve learned lessons all my life…but nothing like I’ve learned in the last 4-6 months.
- Never say never…and always follow your gut. Even when your heart is telling you to “go” stand back and just take notes. Nothing has to be rushed. I’ve lost a best friend jumping into things. Everything happens for a reason, or at least I truly believe that. What was my lesson last month? Will I ever know
there is nothing in this world you cannot achieve if you put your mind to it. im certain of that. keep up the good work. hope your workmate appreciates what you have done for him. and agree with following your gut it rarely lies
I have a question, what would have happened to my 3 other comments? If you change anything in your journal (font color) does that 'clear' your comments?? =(
Anytime you hit "edit" it automatically deletes any comments left. Even if you don't actually do any editing.
I was merely coming back to see how your personal challenge is coming along. Was the advice helpful? (Well, before it was deleted by the editing button, lol)
2012 is a leap year, with 366 days instead of the usual 365 days.
Why?
It was the ancient Egyptians who first figured out that the solar year and the man-made calendar year didn't always match up.
That's because it actually takes the Earth a little longer than a year to travel around the Sun — 365 days, 5 hours, 48 minutes, and 46 seconds, to be exact.
Therefore, as the hours accumulated over the centures, an extra day was occasionally added to the calendar, and over time the practice became more or less official.
The Romans first designated February 29 as leap day, but a more precise formula (still in use today) was adopted in the 16th century when the Gregorian calendar fine-tuned the calculations to include a leap day in years only divisible by four - 2012, 2016, 2020, 2024, etc.
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xxPAYNExx
08:18 Mar 29 2012
~dies laughing~ Priceless!!!
darkness82
08:41 Mar 29 2012
That is for sure...wel it is known that it is the lionesses that do the hunting and are actually physically stronger than the lions...
Let them lions hear you roar ladies... ;)
veauclin
17:45 Mar 29 2012
what you dont see here is the part where the king got kicked in the nuts