Love is such a wonderful thing. But Love can also be cruel and heartless. I loved and still do love you. I wanted to make it work I never wanted to let go. I hate myself for giving up, but right now it's just to late. You are the only one I've ever been with. The only one I ever wanted to be with. We both screwed up, but you drove a knive through my heart. I don't hate you for it, I forgive you for it, but it still hurts like hell. Maybe someday it will end happily, but I can tell you that I won't let my guard down for a while. It's going to be hard to care about anyone. I'm not mad at you for it, its my fault to. Just understand that I need to explore, I need to see whats out there. But you need to do yourself a favor. While I'm exploring, you need to search. Search inside yourself. Don't try to find someone to fill those voids. No one can fill voids in your heart like you can. Only you can truly make yourself happy. Don't be stupid, use whats been returned to you(you know what I mean) until you know you are ready to move on. Don't just hook up with people to fill some void you have. You will never be happy, you will never have a relationship that lasts. You've always had someone and it never lasts. You need to look deep, deep inside yourself to find anything that keeps you from being happy. Trust me a person can't make you happy if you can't make yourself happy. It just doesn't work. I know from experience.
P.S. I love you, but you do still owe me 2 in case you forgot... ;)
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