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I'm coming to believe that no one reads these entries any more, and that's fine. I can just use this journal to pour out my inner most thoughts, though in all honesty I'd be lying were I to say that ALL of my deepest, darkest thoughts were contained in the HTML codes that make up this web page.



I had a friend once, someone who I thought would never shut me out, never lie to me. In truth, he is just that, a friend. At one time he might have been more but he has made it abundantly clear that will never happen. It still hurts though, the knowledge that he DID lie to me, DID shut me out. What did I do to deserve this treatment? I've asked myself this many times and still come up empty. I sit here, thinking of this friend whom I used to sit up late with, conversations of the most off the wall, obscure topics that most probably wouldn't believe me capable of. I wanted to help him, but t'would seem he doesn't desire my help. And still, were he to contact me right now in need of some tidbit of advice, or just the figurative shoulder to cry on, I know I would be there for him, because that's how I am.



I am the Rock for others. I hold them up. No matter how many times I've fallen from my weariness, from my heartache, I still get back up and stand for them. I've so much pain, and anger too, that I feel I'm drowning in it, yet I know I'll endure.



It's all I know to do.

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angelicbeast
17:19 Nov 04 2014

exactly it's all you know how to do so others will naturally flock to one as sturdy supportive and caring hoping to see it in you so that they know it can be within themselves so that they no longer feel empty and alone. It is a hard path but one you are most suited to withstand other wise you would not be who you are a light bringing forth light in others by being a Rock for them whilst you suffer. And it is through your suffering while helping others that while you may not "see" it it is truly heard they just aren't you so they have no clue how to give a response rather then a reaction in the way you would like to have happen. Keep your chin up besides being a rock isn't all that bad :) Look at what they can withstand like you

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