Something I did on facebook after getting tagged and I decided to post it here too.08:50 Feb 01 2009
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1. When I was a kid I used to pretend I had an imaginary friend, mostly I did it to mess with people because I thought their reactions were funny but sometimes I did it when people left me out so that I could prove to them that I didn't really care even though I did.
2. In the fourth grade I wrote a paper about the difference in the desires and appreciation of kids for toys and entertainment then as opposed to 'back when parents made toys for their kids' just because I felt like it, the teacher gave me a bunch of extra credit and got it published in the newspaper around Christmas time.
3. To this day I still fantasize about being superhuman, though these days it's usually based off of the anime, manga, and books that I read. Sometimes I get really deep into one of those day dreams and I forget for a moment or so that I'm in this reality, usually when that happens my body reacts to something in the fantasy and that pulls me out of it.
4. I'm an anime, manga, and gaming geek, I'm not hardcore but that's only because I can't afford to be. One of these days I'll have to money to really get into it though.
5. I'm much more social than people think but that's because I'm not very outgoing and am hard to get into a conversation with most time, it's not that I'm bad at conversing but you have to hit the right topic to trigger me and the topics that will depend on my thoughts and mood at the time.
6. When I was in the fifth grade they had me take some type of apptitude test because they wanted to stick me in special ed but I not only got the highest score on the test out of anyone my age but I outdid most people in signifcantly higher grades than me and the test showed me to be at the college level. I was put into an excelerated learning program the next year.
7. My two greatest ambitions are to have a famous band use some of my lyrics and to write and have published the novel idea I've been working on for a few years.
8. I can be an extremely entertaining person to be around, especially if I'm tired or bored or both. When I get tired I can't keep my energy levels in check so I get really hyper and when I'm bored I can get just plain weird, add some stress to it and you've got some insanity goodness.
9. I love tattoos and girls with them, I like the more artful kind over the random meaningless ones. Add piercings and a tight pair of blue jeans... *wipes mouth*
10. I tell people that music is my sanity and most just take it as I'm really really into it but I really mean it. I really seem to be addicted to it and I'm not very pleasant if I go too long without it, I get irritable and extremely grouchy. And there's nothing better than going for a walk late on a warm night with a cool breeze and some tunes.
11. My eyes are VERY light sensitive, anything brighter than a 25 watt bulb causes them discomfort/pain, that's only one of the reasons that I love the dark though.
12. I really can't stand being around people for the most part and it's really hard for me. When I was 15 or 16 (I can't remember which) the psychiatrist I was seeing at the time told me that I really shouldn't work in public and tried to get me to go on disability all the time, back then I wasn't even willing to consider it but now I go back and forth about whether or not I should go for it. As I get older it's getting harder and harder for me but I'm afraid of trying to get disability, I'm not sure whether I'm more afraid of succeeding or failing though.
13. One of my biggest desires is to see a sci fi/fantasy action movie choreographed to hard rock/goth rock/heavy metal/industrial/and similar music and have all the bacground music the same.
14. I used to be in the Drug Prevention Company, an acting group that did anti-drug and alcohol skits. I didn't honestly care all that much about their purpose so much as I wanted to act. I fancy myself a pretty good actor but I honestly don't know if it's true or not.
15. I have this weird habit where if a certain sensation happens to one side of my body I have to mimic it on the other. Like if a drop of water falls on my left arm I would have to duplicate it on the same spot of my right arm. I never know what sensations will elicit this response and the same one won't always.
16. I can't stop thinking. People seem to misunderstand this when I say it but I mean I am truly incapable of it. My mind thinks with or without me, I can think actively but when I stop my mind doesn't necessarily and if I don't direct it it just goes wherever it will.
17. I love to have the windows open and feel a breeze blowing in, there's not much that can match that for relaxing me. I even do it during the winter as long as it's not outrageously cold out, I just cover up with blankets to stay warm.
18. I really like physical competition, that's why I like playing sports. Even when there's somebody else who is obviously beyond me I can usually out do them simply by sheer force of will, I seem to be able to push myself beyond what I should be able to attain but I suffer for it later and it's totally worth it. I believe it stems from my enjoyment of violence.
19. I love storms, thunder storms in all their glory are awesome. Standing out in a down poor during a violent thunderstorm is pure ecstasy, especially at night.
20. I absolutely love the night, the best I can do to explain it is to say that it puts me at ease but that really doesn't cover it.
21. I love beauty and all kinds of beauty too, in nature, in art, in the female figure, and the list goes on. My favorite kind of photography is that which captures a woman's beauty with the beauty of the world around her and makes them one, that is truly some of the best art there is.
22. I used to refuse to read fiction books when I was a kid because I thought they were useless, right up until my teacher threatened to hold me in detention every day of the school year until I read a fiction book and she picked out a book out of the Nate the Great series. I fell in love with books for entertainment and not just knowledge then.
23. I have a thing for eyes, I really can't explain it better than that but I love looking at people's eyes but more so if their eyes are unique or just plain attractive.
24. There's a spot on my left arm that I like to cut, no it's not anything to do with any psychological problems or anything like that, it just feels good and it relaxes me. I'm also absolutely fascinated with watching myself bleed when I do, I don't know why that is though.
25. I like to have my bed up against the wall because I'm more comfortable with a surface on more than one side of me when I slee, that's also why I like sleeping on couches. I also prefer to sleep on the floor with some cushioning so that my shoulders and what not don't dig into the floor and start hurting.
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