I made a terrible mistake. I accused someone I possibly love of heinous crimes all because of assumptions. Now everything has gone from bad to worse. He said its okay but I know he hasn't forgiven me. The worst part is that he treated me better than anyone else yet all I did was treat him like all the other people that used me.
Some days are better than others. And some days make me wanna die. Today is a mixed day. Yesterday was a horrible day. I have a skin disease so if I scratch on the parts of my skin that are affected I immediately start to bleed. I wanted to cut but there was no razors in sight so what could a girl have done?. I broke a mirror, my mom knocked on the door and asked what had happened so I lied and said that a mirror had fallen. I tried doing it the normal way but the mirror was not sharp enough so I dug it into my flesh. I felt nothing, emptiness.. I loved the pain because I felt the pulse through the rest of my hand. I felt real, alive. I talked to my friend on WhatsApp about it. So she recommended someone for me to speak. This guy made me feel way better and I slept feeling a bit at ease. When u woke up all was normal until I remembered what had happened last night. The worst part is that I had sent a long heart felt message saying goodbye to someone only to find out that they didn't use the number anymore so I felt just great after that..today I kept myself busy and my mood is mellow but we will see about tomorrow.
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Sorvena
16:09 Jun 27 2019
It’s human to make these types of mistakes but try not to be so hard on yourself. No one is perfect. If he loves you, he will understand that and let it go. Women have a harder time with letting go it seems but everything takes time and all we can do is learn from what we do.
paradoxicweirdo
00:45 Jul 14 2019
Thank you so much for the advice..he did forgive me now things are cool between us