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i have falling so deeply in love with a very specialwoman who meanseverything to me in this world. i hold alot of things close to my heart but i must admit i hold herthe closest to my heart. every night i lay in bed praying that she will be safe and that us together will make it through another day together.she worries about me all of the time mostly due to the kind of work that i do which im a firefighter i dont think she likes me doing that but i must do what i have to do.she tells me everyday i talk to her that she worries about me not knowing if she is going to not have me the from moment to moment. which i can very well understand why she feels like that there is a song that runs through my head everytime right before i go into a blazing and or burning building its called "if tomorrow never comes" by garth brooks and there is one certain part in that song that really sticks out and that is the part that goes liek this;" if tomorrow never comes will she know how much i love her and did i i try in everyway to show her everyday that shes my only one and if my time on earth were through and she must face this world without me is the love i gave her in the past going to be enough to last if tomorrow never comes" i hold that part of that songs so very dearly and yet so close to my heart. sometimes when im talking to her on the phone i hear te hurt in her voice and the worry she has for me in her voice it makes me want to just break honestly. but that is how i know that this is not just puppy love at all this is real true love.

babydoll i know that u willeventually readthis and its completely ok with me baby i ust want u to know that i truly do love u and my heart so bleeds for u and im just waiting for you to be able to come home to me and be happy. there are so many songs that i listen to that actually brings tears to my eyes but they r good tears and yet the song makes me think of u so much more and in so many different ways as well. i want you to know baby thta my heart is urs and you hold the key to unlock it and your the only one who will ever have that key. so what im trying to say is that my heart is yours to do whatever with babydoll i just hope you choose to hold it close to your heart and to cherish and to love it as if it were your very own heart.

when i close my eyes your the first thing i see and when i open themmy mind is filled with thoughts of you. and i want it to be like that for the rest of my life and i dont ever want you to think i want you to change if you want to change then plz change cause you want to. i dream all of the time about us holding one another and not letting one another go. i want us to be happier then neone in this world so full of hatred and i want u to just be happy even if it wouldnt be with me. grant imnot saying for you to just leave me and im not syaing im going to leave u etheir im jsut sayingthat even if we werent together i would always want u to be happy no matter who u were or would be with. i knwo it has taking me a while to even post this but everything in this section has laid so heavy on my mind for the past week im guessing or longer. just trying to find the right words to put in this tiny little box is kinda hard. because there is absolutely nowords in this word that could ever say how i truly feel about you.

i may not be perfect but i will always do what i need to or have to do in order to make u happy and to take care of u and yeah sometimes that may mean me taking risks doing things i shouldnt but its all worth it to me once again u r my heart my world and my sould without u i cant continue living. baby i love u so very greatly more then i could ever expaling in words i just hope u knwo that im not going newhere. im here for the long haul and that is my love is what i mean. i love you babydoll....