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yea i wasnt in today, i was ill. but should be in tomorrow, not like anyone will read this or notice tomorrow. yes i am in a sarcastic mood, but so what? ah well, the joy which is life will continue for me, for now. hmm yea im sort of a bit fed up at the moment, especcialy with lies, why do people lie, and yes i have been thinking a hell of alot and yes i do have a brain and i can think, its just not normaly good things. i also wonder alot of things, alot of things that no one will ever know, i also ask why alot, why do we exist? why do we try when there is no point? and what like whats the point in trying? whats the point in bothering with anything, it dosent really get you anywhere you just die like every other person on this planet? i also wonder if people will acctualy read this? i wonder wether this will just blow over peoples heads like everything i say, after all its only me. well i guess its just pointless, because im just going to die at some stage like everyone else, so why should i bother thinking? why? well thats one question i can answer, its because its the only thing tha stops me going insane, the only thing that keeps me here, ah well. i also wonder about other things not realted to death, i realised that there is such a thing as love, its what keeps me here, but i still wonder why. why would anyone love me? i guess thats something i will never know, not ike that matters either. not like anything really matters when it comes to me anymore. i think i have finaly given up fighting for something that will never happen. i wont pass a-levels, i wont become anything succsessful, i'll just e stuck in primark for the rest of my life. i can see it now, i wont get anything better than that, because i cant achive anything better than that because of who i am. ah wel i guess that is life. it is pointless, we are only here to reproduce after all, other than that as humans we just destroy the earth HA we destroy the one thing that keeps us alive, how very clever of us as a species, and how very selfish, we are destroyng the planet for not only us, but future genarations and all the other species, so we might as well all give up and die, let the animals take over and then it would all be happy the end

but there is one thing that keeps me going, that keeps me here and thats my bf, without him i wouldt be here so thank you and i love you more than you will ever know and more than i could ever show

these are basicaly random things i have written, some of them people may be able to relate to, others people wont understand lol



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i'm the one that sits in the corner silently and slowely dissappearing into nothingness.....

one day i will be gone. will anyone notice? will anyone care? im just another fucked up kid.... right?



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No matter how hard i try, i can never quite reach the stars so that i can wish to be there in your arms, watching the night sky, together, forever.



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Like a fly in a spiders web, my heart is stuck with you forever. in the darkness, in the light, no matter what happens i will stick with you, dosent matter what i have to do, how far away you are, because you will always have my heart.



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They tell me to cheer up, the few times i let my gaurd down and they see the real me. but would they be happy if they were me? would they be able to keep the act up all the time? i guess i will never know for sure but i doubt it.



But at least i have you, and my love for you will keep me here.



I ask myself what i would do without you, and the answer is clear.



I could not survive

without you at my side ......