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the one myself whom i once was,you was kind heart,you was sweet,you let people run over you cuz u didnt want to hurt them,well this is the end it is over the year is almost over so is whom u once was ur year will be changed for ever.



you have turned them off,never to turn them back on,he has made you come to this,you will no longer be whom u once was,you will look different, you will not turn them back on tell the one day when he walks in,tell that day comes you shall not turn them back on,you are done getting hurt by the one whom u think cares about ur feeling's,you shall not turn them back on,if u turn them back on then u will only get hurt,not happy but only hurt. (you get happy only to get hurt, why keep them on if that is all u get back ?)

she is slipping away inch by inch

all of this is to much for her

she fights from going back

she had to block it out

she cant go back to her old ways

the thought of losing yet another friend

the thought of another friend she is losing

she cant lose any more of the ones she love

she cant take much more she is hurting inside

their may be a smile on her face

she may laugh and giggle

deep down inside her their is a part of her that wants to end it

she stays strong for her family and friends

she knows they need her and she trys to help them the best she can

she loves everyone and will do anything for them.......... by the unknown

she has been told the world would be better off with out her,this is not the first time she has been told this,3 years ago she was told by her ex he was mean and hateful but he was the only one that care or so she thought.the day she held her friend in her arms as she passed she told her that she would cut everyday to be with her she met a guy on imvu and she gets hurt,she dont know how much she cant take before she goes all the way back to being dark she has done blocked out her feeling what does she half to do to get through this now.she cant keep this up much longer.

shes a shadow,nothing at all,she in pain all the time,no brake from nothing.they yell,they fight,they hit..she wants to cut,she wants to make it all end,she cant do any of it she promised to many people she would not,she shakes from fighting not to cut,shes getting weak every second fighting from cutting she needs to do it but cant...writing helps but this time its not nothing is helping not even the rubber band,she gets up and walks to the kitchen and downs tea she in pain all the time why not make it more to help him out with her pain.....she drinks the tea and lays in bed as it starts to work.

she has went dark inside,their is no one left.he offed himself cuz of her she cant take it she done held on of her loves in her arms why she passed away she didnt get the chance to hold her other love,she cant keep it up she has to do something -she looks down a nd tears up- R.I.P MON,NISHWA,JONATHON,they will always be together may not be in this life but the other life to come,they will be happy once again out of pain and sorrow.tare will be here but not nishwa will not tare had to do it she letting part of her go and live in the clouds,she will be with the cutting,they will be happy once again

Im sitting there trying to get a stick out of the dogs mouth,he looks up at me,softly growls as i slowly moves my hand away,he stops then i bring my hand back,he softly growls loud so i move my hand,softly looks at him weird so i see if he's calm then i put my hans back he growls louder my body shakes softly of terrifiedness,kindly moves my hand again he calms,what do i do i put my hand down,he bites it ow i scream a little,smiles.

you slip you fall it hurts you get up you slip you fall it hurts,you tell it to go but it stay hurting you every time u step on it,you slip u fall it hurts you growl and hit it it laughs,you get up you slip u fall it laughs,you growl,you hold on to something and get up.you slip it ur head on the pole,it hurts grr your mad