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I have not told many people my story but here it is...i ned to get it out: about 2 years ago my mother fell in love with another woman. I hated her. The next month she moved into my house with her 5 hellish cats and 3, evil, ignorant children. I hate them. Since then all they have given me is pain. They forget my birthday. They forget me until it is time to get someone in troble, then its all my fault. The woman hurts me in more ways then one. She also hurts my mother. All my mother can do is agree with her and stand back while the 4 of them take everything out on me. All i want is to be happy. Why is that so hard? All i ask for is a bit of love. Why is it impossible for me to get that? now i can see why i am the way i am, They made me that way and They won't let me live. They fuel my anger. I hope they die. I hope They leave us alone. does anybody feel the way i do? does anybody have to put up with the things i do? Why do i deseve the pain?Can anybody help me? NO! of course not. We are alone. We will die alone.

My head is a very twisted, confuzed place. I talk to my friend..in my head. She tells me about the ignorance of the human race...I belive her words. So ignorant and stupid. They will kill us if we don't kill them first. She tells me we must be strong...look innocent and sweet. They will never suspect a thing. People hurt us. We have never felt anything but hatred and sadness for all the human race. We long for the feeling of love, but is it really worth it? All it brings is more pain. Life is pain. Your born in pain, live a life in pain and then you die..rest..sleep..calm. We are not afriad to die. Death brings happiness. So does power...maybe, if we take this world we can teach all foolish mortals a lesson. Then maybe we will all live together as one, and better feelings will be felt. No more pain. No more anger. I have seen my future. I know how it goes...before I even started highschool i knew it will end in death. Too much. Life is too much. Maybe if we work hard we can slip through Death's fingers and conqure our dreams. For now we will turn a blind eye to all that we see and hate. And then maybe..some time we can feel other things....love? no...probebly not..we can wish...happiness?? We can hope. So long and goodnight.;[