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As I seat here thinking about the love that lives inside of me for the one I love I think about her beautiful eyes how I want to always be able to get lost in them. I think of just wanting to see them again. The way they seem to shine like the stars at night. I would love to see them shine in the sunlight or even the starlight on a cool spring night. I think of her great smile. It’s a smile that lights a feeling like no other smile can do inside of me. With just one smile she can make me weak. She is the one person that has made the most of my life. I may have a son with another woman but if I could I would love to have some with her. She knows how much she owns my heart. But to tell how she owns it I’m not sure I can find the words to say just how much that is. It’s like the she’s the sun to my darkness, the air to my breath or that one thing in the entire world that can and has changed my life for the better. She’s so sweet and caring. She knows how to make me feel better and at the same time she makes me deal with it. No matter what’s going on she makes life worth living and caring about. She’s my angel my love and the one that owns my heart. I can think of all the bad things that happen in this world but then we think about the good the love I have for her. I have to say with my angel in my life nothing can hurt me. It’s like that song says “ant’s no sunshine when she’s gone only darkness everyday.

I think about her soft smooth skin. How I would love to hold it close to mine and run my fingers lightly over her skin everyday of my life. I want to wake up next to my angel everyday so bad so I can look in her eyes and no I have the best wife ever that I love and adore. I would love to tell her how much I love her. To be able to look her in the face everyday and just say I LOVE YOU MY SWEET ANGEL.

I look at her a picture of her. I think about her soft lips. I wonder how they might feel on my lips. How they might taste. I look at them and think how kissable they look in all her pictures. They look so very soft and sweet. How I want to be able to kiss them for the rest of my life. To know that I would get to be the one she kisses ever morning and night.

Most of all I think about her. Not just one single part but her as a whole. Yes we might have hurt each other in the past. But one thing I’ll all ways say is that when I needed her the most she’s always been there for me to help me. She’s never put me down but she’s always helped me right back up. She truly is MY ANGEL with WINGS and HALO. She has helped me more then she will ever really know. One day I hope to be able to show her just how much she’s helped me. I some ways she’s my strawberrywine.

I would love to see if her offer still stands. If so I would ask her if I could take her up on that off but I would want to see if she might be willing to change just one part of it. I would ask her to be with me for the rest of our lives and the baby’s life too. I want the strings attached I want her to be my everything my soul mate.

I know I have a lot of apologizing to do to her. But I hope she can find it in herself to forgive me. To let me back in her life and have her in mine. I would lo9ve if I could have her hand in life as my partner to hold for the rest of my life. I’m sorry for everything I did that hurt you in anyway. I get down on my knees and ask you for your forgiveness. You truly are the owner of my broken heart and I know you are the only one that can prepare it. I will forever have your name in my heart and on my mind. I reach out my hand and ask you to take it. To never let it go again I see on here and I want so badly to talk with you. To tell you just how much I miss you and want you back in my life. I want to but at the same time im scared you might reject me. Just shoot me down like I was nothing. I remember how it felt to be shoot down but you it hurt me so bad.

I still think about went you told me you wanted nothing to do with me anymore. It took some time but we started talking again. We talked for some time and texted each other but for some reason we stopped. I wanted to talk with you so bad when my dad passed away but I lost your number. I knew you would be the one that could help me deal with his passing