01:35 Feb 23 2009
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I just realized something while I was sitting here listening to my MP3 player. Naturally, I have it loaded up with songs that I like, but as I was listening, I was reminiscing, and it hit me. I don't think I have a single song on my MP3 player that is just "ear candy." They all have some kind of meaning to me.
For instance, the last 2 I've listened to were by PM Dawn, which was my childhood best friend's favorite band. He moved overseas the summer between 7th grade and 8th grade, and we lost touch. Listening to PM Dawn makes me think about him. I never told anyone, but I had the biggest crush on him!
Before that was "Funky Town" by Lipps, Inc. A song that reminds me of being a carefree 5 year old. It was my favorite song at the time, and no matter where I was, if that song came on, I would start dancing and singing as loud as I could. I remember being in Sears picking out new clothes for school when it came on. There I was in the middle of a packed store, singing and dancing.
Going back another song on my playlist was "Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore" by REO Speedwagon, which makes me think of "the one that got away." I remember being in a bar with a good friend one night, a guy that had was in a pretty serious relationship with a girl I really didn't care for. They had been together the entire time I'd known him. There we were, just hanging out having a few drinks with some of his friends, the jukebox rockin' away in the corner and this song came on. I got about 4 lines into the song before my eyes welled up with tears and I had to either go outside or make a fool of myself in front of a bunch of guys. Needless to say, I went outside. He followed me out, and things just kind of clicked for us without either of us having to say anything. A few weeks later, he left his girlfriend and he and I started dating. Unfortunately, over time, I wanted things he wasn't ready for, and instead of waiting, I let him go. Today, he's still a good friend. He's in a relationship that makes him happier than I've ever seen him. I know I should be happy for him. Most of the time I am, but there are times, like when I hear this song, that I just can't help but kick myself for being so stupid.
"Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls makes me believe that it's possible to find someone to love that I can be completely myself with, even when the rest of the world could never accept everything about me.
Golden Earring's "Radar Love" makes me remember all of the treacherous 4 hour (one way) drives I used to endure to spend time with my (now ex-) husband. Sure, times have changed, and I despise him now, but listening to "Radar Love" makes me remember what being that in love was like.
"Jesse's Girl" by Rick Springfield brings back memories of my friend Shana and I when we first started getting interested in boys. She and I used to sit in my bedroom, listen and sing along to "Jesse's Girl" and then we'd talk about boys for hours.
The Jeff Healy Band's "Angel Eyes" and Aerosmith's "Angel" - Both of these were songs that my first serious boyfriend dedicated to me. We would talk on the phone and he would play them both for me every night before we went to bed.
Out of the hundreds of songs I have on my MP3 player, each one holds a special place in my heart. Whenever I want to take a walk down memory lane, I never have to fear that my memory will fail me. All I have to do is slip on my headphones, press the little play button, and I'm instantly transported into the past. Technology is a wonderful thing. :)
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ladySnowStrixx
15:31 Feb 27 2009
no but you can do something special for him tonight to show him you're proud of him.
Angelus
00:57 Mar 04 2009
..just have to read this, to know of your pride.