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We had an ice storm here last night. Being from Upstate NY, I'm used to the ice and snow, but around here, it's a big deal. Back home, kids go to school when there is four feet of snow on the ground and it's still falling. Here, they close schools and business at the mere mention of winter weather.



So far this winter, we've gotten a couple of inches of snow here, last week, which melted away within a couple of days. And then we got the ice storm last night. Back in NY, they've gotten several feet since last week, and it hasn't stopped snowing since it started.



Nope, I don't miss Upstate NY winters. I really don't. As much as I miss my friends and family, and hell, even my job back home, I really don't want to be there right now. PA winters are the way to go!



Below are some pictures of the ice we got last night, and the damage it did to the tree in our front yard. Enjoy!







2 pictures of the tree in our front yard that was split nearly in half by the weight of the ice.







No, that white stuff on the tree isn't leaves or flowers. It's ice.







A close up of the grass, covered in ice.





Another close up. This is a branch from the climbing rose bush we have.

I spent today in a very seasonable way. In the kitchen making cookies, listening to CDs of Christmas music.



I also prepared tonight's dinner of Ham and Scalloped Potatoes, which is in the oven cooking as I write this, while listening to Christmas music. I'm definitely feeling the joy of the season right now.



As I was baking today, I decided that I'm going to send out Christmas cards, which I don't normally do. I'm usually a grinch up until Christmas Eve day. Some of you that read this may get an address request from me, because I want to share my new found Christmas cheer with my friends here. For those of you who I talk to regularly that don't get the address request, please don't take it personally. I'm only going to send cards to my nearest and dearest friends, and those are few and far between here.

I chatted on the phone with a great friend a little while ago. It was a very nice conversation. I enjoyed it quite a bit. (Not to mention, he's the only one that's wished me a happy birthday so far. :P )



Thanks for the call. It brightened my day. :D

Here is a copy of a message I received, and a copy of a journal entry from the same person, along with what my feelings on them, and the whole situation, are. (The sender's name has been removed, to keep anyone from sending ill will this person's way.)



Message:





11:28:54

Dec 03 2007



I read the rant.. as my last message says.. and yes, I went over the top.. but, I've been cheated on before and hearing you talking of somone as you had, well.. it just pressed my buttons.

..

I knew nothing of all of that.. and some of the things you say in your rant are a little wrong.. you forget that I've wanted us to share.. and like you, I've done a lot to let down barriers, to form our relationship, such as it is.

..

So, is that it?



(end of message)



Journal Entry:



In all fairness I tried. Everything.. it seems she doesn't want to speak, saying in her journal she feels let down.

I can't say I blame her, really.

..

And yes.. this is a public entry.. of course it is.. I'd jumped some some heftly conclusions, most of which had been unfair.

But, if you're not going to open up and keep secrets, suspicion blossoms, especially when you spend so long talking of another man, in such damn glowing terms.



(end of journal entry)



My thoughts on the message:



Hearing me talk of someone as I had? WTF?!?! I didn't talk of "someone." I talked of a WEBSITE!



To be exact, I did speak of the person, briefly, but only his name on here, and how I help him with graphics. To quote - "he's got his own site, that I've been helping him with graphics with. I managed to get addicted to the site. I spend more time there than I do here."



I'd gone on to say how much I enjoy the site, the forum there, and the quality of the members, mentioning no one person AT ALL (to quote again - "all of them seem to be high quality people").



The conversation went on a little while longer, with me saying that the membership there would probably never be as large as the membership here, because it seems to be spread by word of mouth (unlike this site, where you can Google "vampires" and find it).



Now, you tell me (and this is the exact same thing I asked him, which he was unable to answer), WHERE did I ever gush about the owner of the site? What could possibly be taken from that that would lead someone to believe that I was in a relationship with, or attempting to start a relationship with, the owner of said site?



I can answer that. NOWHERE and NOTHING. I was speaking of a website, that I enjoy quite a bit, because of the forum, the games and the other members. It is in NO WAY any different from how I enjoy this site. Does that automatically mean that Cancer and I have a thing going on? NO WAY! I've never even spoken to the man, other than thanking him for approving my Acolyte application.



I'll say again, as I said that night, you're paranoid. You've been cheated on in the past. So have numerous other people, myself included, but I AM NOT one of your exes and I have done NOTHING wrong. I didn't even "go on" about the person you're claiming I did, and you can't honestly say that I did.



I have every copy of every message we sent that night. I've re-read every single one, many times. Until you turned the focus on him specifically, there is no mention of the owner of that site, other than his name on here (which you'd asked) and that I help him with graphics. When I asked you, numerous times, to show me where exactly I said anything more than that, you were unable to. Point proven.



You said you knew nothing of any of that? That's a lie. You knew damn well that I help him, and other people, with graphics. I've told you more than once that I help him with graphics, both for the coven and for his site.



And you wanted us to share? I did share. I was telling you about what I had been doing. Apparently you didn't like it, so obviously you didn't want me to share.



You also said that some of the things in my rant are a little wrong. How so? Given that it's based on my personal feelings about the situation, there is nothing at all wrong about it.



Truth be told, I'm not up to defending myself repeatedly when I've done nothing wrong, nor should I have to.



My thoughts on the journal entry are basically the same as my thoughts on the message. I do have to comment on the line:



But, if you're not going to open up and keep secrets, suspicion blossoms, especially when you spend so long talking of another man, in such damn glowing terms.



I have kept NO secrets. There was no point in keeping secrets, because there was nothing to be secretive of. And talking of another man in "glowing terms"??? Again, I'll ask you to show me where I ever did that. You can't, because it never happened. I spoke of a WEBSITE in "glowing terms" and that's all it was. A DISCUSSION ABOUT A FUCKING WEBSITE!



You seriously have issues that you need to take care of.

I love the "Private Entry" feature.



It kind of makes you wonder who or what I was writing about, doesn't it? :P

Though I've been here the majority of the day, I've only replied to a couple of messages, and I haven't initiated conversation with anyone. I've been avoiding people. I'm not in the mood to deal with 99.9% of the people who want my attention today.



I've attempted writing this entry numerous times since midnight, without much luck. I usually end up clearing out the box and exiting my journal without writing anything. I was too frustrated, but I've calmed down some now. Now, I've found the words I was looking for all day.



It's unlike me to rant about something so specific here in my journal, but I'm going to do it anyway. It's on my mind, and I need to get it out.



In the last 24 hours, my words have been twisted beyond belief, and I've been faulted when I've done nothing wrong. To top it off, my "safe haven," the one person who I could turn to when someone or something got me down, is the one who has made me feel the way I do. It hurts immensely. I opened myself up, let myself feel something again, and I was shit on. I'm fed up with being treated like this. I don't deserve it.



From now on, my contact will be limited to people I know won't take what I say and twist it around to suit themselves. Luckily, there are people here that I'm ensured of that with.