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I feel like a castaway floating from island to island. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I meet acquaintances that entertain me along the way. But they are locked into their island and while they welcome visitors they don't invite you to stay. They admire my sense of humor and dedication to the causes I choose. But still I float from place to place. No place to call my own. My friends are dear but otherwise disposed. Fitting me in while I stop on but I am never a proority. Not important just a moment of entertainment .



What is my festiny...what is fate? I want to feel like I belong to something or someone. It is my own doing but I don't know how to undo it. I am happy but lonely. Wandering, searching, longing. What an odd situation. I have been told that if you like yourself people will like you back. I do like who I am yet I feel that I don't matter. Hmmm. I guess u could be whining. With that I say good night. Sweet dreams

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BeauBradalhard
18:31 Jul 29 2015

That's amazing, because I feel the same way sometimes. It's like you almost read my mind and wrote what I think at times. Gosh... *Thinking again* Well, unfortunately, all too often happiness occurs in such fleeting moments... And it's addictive. But, if it weren't for the lonely times, then the precious moments would not be appreciated so deeply, and taken for granted all too easily. You know what I mean? I could just go on and on, but I reckon I'm rambling already, only because what you wrote here struck a serious chord with me... And I hope all is well with you.

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What makes someone your friend. It is hard to describe in words. I have the dearest friend that means the world to me. He has overcome cancer. Had a stem cell transplant. Survived chemo. He has the grumpiest demeanor but when you sit and talk to him it takes nothing to crack him up. He is always honest. No bullshit passes his lips. He fears no judgement. He is true unto himself always. I talk to him every day. If I miss a day I feel like I forgot something the entire day.



The last few days he has not been feeling well. I have worried morning and night. But I call him. He sounds tired. His laugh is slow to come. Oh how my heart hurts. I pray it is just a summer cold or allergies. Tomorrow he sees the doctor so hopefully they will get to the bottom of it.



I adore this man. I love him. I care about him. If anything happened to him heart would shatter. He is the truest friend I have had in a very long time. We laugh, we talk. We share. It is an incredible synergy that only true friends can share. There is no crossing the line between friendship and love. There is no hidden desire or longing. It is simply and genuinely the friendship we all hope to have.



I honor and treasure him and pray that all is well. I thank him for opening himself up to me. For mentoring me. For accepting me. He is a true gift for which I will be forever grateful.

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Ezeal
08:08 Jul 18 2015

I wish the best for him, sounds like a very special person this world can't afford to lose.

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