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It is true. I was picked on so much as a kid. I never understood why or what I did wrong. I always felt sorry that I couldn't be a person that people liked better.
I felt hurt and confused but never angry at them. Instead I worked hard to be more proud of myself and my own strengths.
I love to learn and study. I have spent so many years watching people interact with each other; in public, in home, to strangers, to friends, online. Not for entertainment but because of curiosity. I have this really grand curiosity about the minds of other people.
Part of learning about people is to learn about their culture and society. Understanding the belief systems in which they were raised.
I know some people consider it so boring but learning is the one thing I am good at. I am terrible at people because although I really admire them, they aren't trustworthy. Even the closest people to us will at times make us feel so small and awful...
When I feel small, I remember that it takes more microscopic particles than I can count to make up the chair on which I sit and it makes me feel a little better.
I kept busy most of all yesterday. I avoided social media as much as possible, though I visited VR a few times. I consider VR more an antisocial media site, haha.
My husband brought me oranges and a rose for my birthday. I thanked him for the oranges because I love them but haven't bought any in a while but the rose I gave him a little bit of shit for. Because they die. Why do people bring a dead flower to the person they love? At least bring meat!
I never ask for any special treatment on my birthday. I don't even ask for recognition. He had wanted to do something grand like buy something expensive that I really really wanted and take me to dinner. I told him that he was putting to high a value on me, the oranges were fine.
I was really happy that yesterday was uneventful and I was able to watch three episodes of Tanaka-Kun is Always Listless.
I finally got an Mp3 player. I was really excited about it too but I don't know how to find music for it. I had a few songs already downloaded to the computer; free offers from the artists and I copied my one music CD. I think I ruined it in the process because it won't play anymore. Luckily I bought two of the same CD; just different covers.
I tried adding some music that I liked back when I was young and angsty but it just sounds too desperately whiny and apathetic. So I took it off.
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