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i have felt a pull to vampires and wolves and all the creatures of the night, since i was but a child... i find it ironic, that i have to bite when im gettin busy... one night i know my dark prince will find me... and on that night he had either change me or take my life... for i grow weary of this human life of mine...

The Caitiff



The clansless. Caitiffs, are a new aspect to the vampire's society. They don't have anyone to teach them Disciplines, and no one to tell them of the Traditions. This doesn't mean they don't know any Disciplines, they could very well make their own, but usually they figure out a few small tricks to a few Disciplines. Some may even group together every once in a while, but not likely. They prefer their freedom, and the will to do what they will.



Caitiff are vampires with no clan to call their own. This usually happens because their sire despised them and left them to die. And the occasional victim of feeding gets lucky, and some how gets some of the vampires blood. They are also the rebellious ones, and some take leave of their sire and do as they will, most of the time moving to a new city or some where remote.



Most of the other clans look upon the Caitiff as trash, weak blooded, no knowledge of who and what they are and leave them to them selves as long as they don't cause any trouble, and most defiantly don't break the Masquerade.

what can i do??? my heart belongs to "him"...i was down on life when i met him... the father of my son was abusing me, tryin to strangle me all the time... i met "him" online... he was sweet and kind... a real charmer... we drove each other crazy... couldnt stop talkin, textin, emailin... we had seen all of each other on cam... "he" drove me so wild, he gave me my first orgasm over the phone... i decided i needed more, "he" was up for it... i went to "him"... "he" took me to a magical place...a place i felt at home (something i have never felt)... "he" sent me to heaven several times (i'd had sex... but never had i'd orgasmed..til "him")... "he" thought i couldnt teach him a few tricks... i taught "him" a thing or two... "he" gave me other firsts... when i went to meet "him"... i had no intention of fallin for him... i knew i had a thing for "him"... but after all was said and done, i loved "him" completely... how could i not??? i had done more with "him" than with any man... including my soon-to-be-ex-husband who couldnt keep from hittin me... somthin about "him" felt right... but what can i do??? i fell hard... and he is nowhere near now... "he" says we will be friends... when "he" needs help "he" comes to me... but what am i to do... i love "him" so bad... i cant dtop thinkin of him, i dream of him, event hough it hurts... and i cant stop myself... i have talked with other guys.. i try thinkin of me with them... but "he" worms "his" way back into my thoughts and dreams...



the heart is mysterious... but what can i do... nothin, is the answer... nothin but hurt, nothin but cry, nothin but break apart bit by bit...

never have i fit in... i have always been apart from all else... im tired of being alone... i need one person to walk with me for awhile... i have been broken and shattered... i have been bruised and battered... im ready to whole... im ready to soar...im ready to be free...but is anyone able to help me??? is anyone able to teach me??? or will i be alone for the rest of time.....