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You would never guess how many times I was approached today and throughout the week by people of faith who wanted me to convert to their religion just because they thought that they could simply save me from the modern world and I quote "from myself", what a load a bull. You will never guess what I told them when they asked me if I had a religion, so I said no I don't so they then said "so you don't have a god or believe in heaven?, So then I replied " Oh I believe in heaven I just believe in hell more, cuz obviously thats where I'm going when I die! I already have an appointment with Lucifer to have tea, then I'm having brunch with Sudam Hussain and evening meal with Hilter because we have a lot of catching up to do. Oh my gods, their faces where a dream, so hilarious infact I thouught I would die just from laughing. Some people have already told me I'm going to hell, like all of my RE teachers, most of the christian and muslim people who stand in my town centre and some of my friends, but the thing is I know I am going to hell and I'm not scared all I can feel is excitement at being in Hell and partying 24/7 listeing to rock'n'roll and chilling out by the pits of damnation- yeah I'm a freak, believe me you're not the first one to tell me- I know there's a Hell, believe me I've seen it, I know there's a Heaven, shhh, let's keep it a secret. :)

I have never really felt that I fit right in this world, I thought I was different from everybody else, what I wore, the colours I had in my hair, my accents and just the way I interacted with other people.

But, then again, the way that I am outside my room and inside are two completely different people. Outside the walls of my room, I always smile, I always laugh and joke and walk and talk like I am a queen who knows what she is worth and when everyone asks how I am I'll say " Yeah, I'm fine thanks" and move on. But do any of the people who asked me that really not here the underlying sound of dispare and sadness in my voice or are they asking just because they have to and don't really care for my answer.

However, inside the confines of my room, my smile drops, my laugh fades and my voice disappears and I slowly drift into my own little world inside my mind, were I'm free, and powerful and strong. A world were balance has no need to exist for it is always dark but eventhough it is dark the moon still shines and the stars still sparkle.

For when the sun sets then I feel alive and able to do anything, be anyone, isn't that all anyone ever truly wants anyway.

But eventhough they can't admit what they want doesn't mean I won't. Unlike them, I'm free.