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I'm sure you know dad

You know alright

No one else heard me

But you heard me

Because you loved me all the time



And look at me now ...



They love what they want me to be

They don't even know who I am

But you always have

You were always proud of me



They talk shit ... behind my back



I lived in a world I didn't know

A world with no risk

No excitement

No tears



A world drained of color



And they still wanted more

More change

More of my time

More of my soul





And more fucking pats on the back

For a job well done





If they knew me

They would have known that ...

The only change left in me ...

Was to change back



Change back to the monster I was.





"If I would only change

This of that" is what they would tell me

Then they could be proud of me

Like the pride folks have ...



When they paper train their fucking dog

Motherfuckers ...



Well dad

They're finding out now

Finding out that if they cross me

I will become cross



And cross them out



You were always in my corner dad

They hide in a corner

Afraid to get to know

The soul within the shell



And I don't give a fuck



They woke me up

And now I'll die the bad guy

To them anyway

To you I'm perfect



To me ....

I'm finally ...

A man again ...

Head held high ...

Living in a world of color



A world they will never understand.



I love you dad





By martin

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Isis101
02:12 Feb 28 2015

I recall reading another of your poems about your father. I can tell that you really miss him.

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my kid is the color

in my world.

I had to leave our world

to become a good citizen



for us ?



your world is black and white

our world is high

and low

and full of color



even when it's concrete grey



your world is easy

any fucking monkey could do it.

our world is ....

you never know till you get there ...



and risk is the price you pay for the ride





by martin