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When you thought I wasn't looking,

I felt you kiss me good night,

And I felt loved.



When you thought I wasn't looking,

I saw tears come from your eyes,

And I learned that sometimes things hurt,

But it's all right to cry.



When you thought I wasn't looking,

I saw that you cared

And I wanted to be everything that I could be.



When you thought I wasn't looking,

I looked ...

And wanted to say thanks for all the things I saw

When you thought I wasn't looking.

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LIFEBLOOD
12:36 Jan 30 2011

How cool is that! Great stuff.

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Stuck in black,

a dark abyss,

my thoughts echo in the silent loneliness.



I can hear my own thoughts, and that makes me scream,

I hear my own cries, I pray its just a dream,

yet I never wake, the light never shows, slowly in this silence my craziness grows.



I can hear my own voice, yet I don't speak,

I can hear all my tears drop, slowly they leak,

I thought they'd run out, but theres an ever lasting supply,

nothing helps, my eyes are never dry.



How can something so peaceful, make you so insane,

all alone, my thoughts echoing, I'd give my life, to never have to feel this pain.



Who thought silence could echo?

yet, it does.

So loudly the sounds of silence echoing all around.



I want to leave this dark abyss,

trade this life in for happiness.



I wait in darkness, crying my tears,

waiting for someone to rescue me,

to capture all my fears.



Loudly this silence captures me,

taking over, darkness is all I see.

Forever forgoten

I am you see

Nothing but shadows

They all call me

Shadow in the shadows

Darknesss i see

My soul the night wind

My heart but a breeze

Yet my heart be broken

By light of he

Always to stand

Away from thee

A shadow a shadow

How can that be

Forever im doomed

To be ignored by he

An eye for the neighbour

I'm still watching you

And that star with opinions

An eye for you too



To you who would need me

A mouth to ask for advice

And to you who can't see me

A paper with lies



You know who you are:

I give my mind to you

It's got hundreds of scars

From times I barely got through



And for you, my "best friend"

A middle finger you deserve

You've caused a lot of anger

In every single nerve



And my heart?

Well it ain't even there

I died smiling in a war

So it ain't to be found anywhere



And for you who are reading

Noticed the ink is red?

Well it was not much left

So I give you my blood instead

Pretty rivers,

Scarlett in hue,

Running down my arms

In memory of you.



You’re alive, I know.

Just what do you take me for?

The man you used to be

Is for whom I mourn.



Shiny slices

Line my gaunt wrists,

Each scar a marker

Of a forgotten kiss.



Each day a blister

On my sick joke of a life,

I watched you kiss her,

Love her with your lies.



She loves you back

With her hidden affairs.

You couldn’t have missed

His smell in her hair.



She whispers a love song

Off the top of her head.

She “made it up for you”,

Atleast that’s what she said.



Are you just stupid?

Or has ‘love’ made you blind?

She swears you’re ‘the one’,

But you’re past tenth in line.



This scar is our first date.

This one’s our first fight.

This hideous wound

Is our first overnight.



Some scars are reminiscent

Of when you were a kid,

Your hands and my metal

Left more than childhood did.



I whisper your name

As metal bites my wrists.

All of these scars,

The price I paid for a kiss.

Demonic urges guide his path,

Filling his soul with his relentless wrath.

A horrible fate, this killers sadistic thrill,

Taking your life, your blood he will spill.

A tear falls from your beaten face,

Only a matter of time until he wins this race.



Your screams for help make hunger him for the hunt,

It's a death you soon will confront.

He's cold and ruthless he's on your trail,

Picturing your body limp and pale.

A parasitic mind out for blood.



A puddle of blood is where you lay,

Resting in the grass where you will stay,

Close your eyes for heaven to come,

Your body lay hard and numb.

Demonic heart, he seeks your soul

A price we pay, Death's Toll.

This mistake

Lead to this heartache

I don't know how much more I could take

This love, I hate

This heart, I break



I'm sorry for following the wrong path

Not knowing how long it would last

Now, it will never pass

To hell, I shall be cast



The never ending lies

The empty eyes

The shallow "goodbyes"

The sharp endes of knives

The loud sobbing cries



These words I spoke

Your heart, I broke

This blood, I choke

In this blood I soak



This final mistake

Hopefully now

You'll finally hate

To spill blood,

Like it's a game,

Let it splatter,

Let it rain.

I told you,

It's easy as pie,

When i cackle,

You might cry.

Familiar strangers,

Die in vain,

Disconnect the face,

From the name.



You'll roll the dice,

You'll turn the wrong card.

I'll slice you up,

I'll take that heart.



I'll string it up,

I'll let it bleed,

I'll walk it every day,

I promise,

On it's own lead.

I'll look after it,

Like it's my own,

If it'll save me,

Being alone.

Sometimes I feel like

When I wake up

I won't have something of anything

To pull my broken body together

People pretend

Faking friendships

Fights fought with vicious words

Lunging like cobras

Biting deep and poisoning the soul

Tears of blood

Shed in anger

Drowned in sadness

Crimson swirls engulf the mind

Limiting emotions

Eliminating all hope

Words you say

Come with a price to pay

Just watch

Just wait

Shot like bullets

They tear away

Shredding the heart

Slowly



Fading



Away

Empty hearts

in empty places

filled to the edges

with empty faces.



Robots wrapped in human flesh,

like cameras and lenses in slow motion,

empty bodies stuffed with wires,

with less than a soul and no emotion.



Empty eyes stuck in a trance,

but this is the future-

we are advanced.



Empty shells

with bulletproof skin,

don't let rain or metal,

or mercy in.



Our children, creations, killing machines,

what exactly do they need?

They know no suffering or heartbreak or plead,

our future generation will never bleed.

War

It is the hatred

of the world unleashed

It is the danger

Beyond the walls

And death's playground



War

It is on the battlefield

That it takes the lives

Of the pure soldiers

It is what some allow

To grow beyond control



War

It is the wrath

That causes suffering

And death

It is the reaper's

Most powerful tool

You hear them screaming,

and running and seemingly

dead with their smoldering eyes.

I cannot imagine

the world you must live in

when everyone's made out of lies.

There is no escaping

when everything's taken

and nightmares leap out of the bed.

You know you're not crazy

but memory's hazy,

you just might be losing your head.

Don't run from the rain storm,

though dark clouds are forlorn

and lightning can destroy the sky.

In front of the doorway,

a sight that you can't say,

the man hanging by his own tie.

The clock in the attic,

alive in a panic,

screams that you've run out of time.

So pull on your hat,

we just can't stop to chat

if you'll get out before the last chime.

Your heels are all broken,

you're already choking,

your lips are a dark lavender.

The puppets are laughing

your airways are halfing,

just like what happened to her.

Sweet little sister,

away with her mister,

lost in the shadows of love.

Kissed her and killed her

and after he stilled her

he left her and said "Life is rough."

Grab your old suitcase

and tie up your boot lace

and get out while you still can.

You might have a chance

to escape this romance

and Satan's fiery hand.

But you've got to get out

with no scream, with no shout,

and here is my favorite kicker--

You're trapped in a place

made of shadows and waste,

locked in by your own love of liquor.

You can run, you can cry,

you can break down and hide,

but in the end you will go back to hell.

Find sweet little sister

and sing how you missed her,

and go find more souls to sell.

Time has fallen,

Its hands stopped turning.

Destiny has begun,

The story unfolding.



A woman has chosen,

One man's love forsaking.

A father has sinned,

His cruelty everlasting.



A man has grown,

Upon lies unforgiving.

Love has died

Long before the truth revealing.



A warrior has fought,

For his fate unyielding.

Yet life has gone

Against him conspiring.



The end has came,

A one-winged angel dying.

Time has fallen,

His story unchanging.

The wind spoke to me,

I listened and heard.

Whispering voices

That called my name.



Do you remember?

They asked me.

Remember love?

I had no answer.



I knew no mother,

Loved no father.

I had only myself,

All alone.



Have you cared?

The voices murmered.

Cared for someone?

I laughed softly.



What I have no receive,

I cannot learn to give.

Feelings were only weaknesses

That life has taught me to abhor.



Am I still human?

I asked the wind in turn

A monstrosity?

I had to know.



The wind blew itself out,

The voices died,

Leaving only the silence

That was my reply.

I saw a face

Upon the water,

Reflection.



Frozen beauty

Without emotion,

Emptiness.



Haunting eyes,

Searing across my memory

Desolation.



Skeins of silver

Flying with the wind

Phantasm.



Unearthly vision

In a ripple of time,

Presence.



Reality or illusion

Dissipating with the morning mist,

Imagination.



Burning. Incinerate. Ashes left in vain.

Fire walk with me.

Become one with my judgement, my hatred.

Consume this town of its living offenses.

Burn away.

Incinerate.

Leave no flesh unscathed.

They deserve this.

Yes.

Retribution.



Fire walk with me.

Extinguish their lives.

Return them to the earth.

Send them to their treacherous ancestors.

Deserters.

Cowards.

Today their lineage will end.

Yes.

Usurpation.



Fire walk with me.

Though your flames be mortal,

May your rage continue until my reunion.

Fiery fury.

Cruel ignition.

My destiny has awakened.

My reign will begin.

Yes.

Ascension.



Burning. Incinerate. Ashes left in vain.

My story has ended,

The words falling into silence.

Soon I will be forgotten.



Life was too brief,

A rose that withered

With the first touch of winter deep.



How does it feel to be loved?

A sad question I know

That will never be answered.



A moment in time,

We passed each other by

Are those tears in your eyes?



Leaving this world

Without saying goodbye,

I thought I heard you cry.



Turning back, I saw

Your lips that spoke my name,

Asking me to stay.



I reached out my hand,

Wishing I could touch your face

Even as I slowly fade away.



I shall live on forever

If only in your memories

As long as you remember me

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martin
23:40 Jan 22 2011

nice

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Subtle breezes of warmth

Ever blowing across your dreamscape.

Peace, however, forever eludes you.

How many times have you tried to search?

It never goes away, this feeling of emptiness,

Repeating memories of times long past,

Of dreams you ignored and desires left unanswered,

The never-ending noise buzzing in your head,

Heaven and Hell becoming one.

Love, touched only once,

Joy, a fleeing chance.



Sorrow, a thorn clung fast,

Grief, an eternity to last.



Destiny, a quip of fate,

Life, abound with hate.



Fallen angel, broken dreams,

A lost soul amidst the Lifestream.



My tears fall, a gentle rain,

How I long to ease your pain.



Broken angel, haunt me still,

Always, shall I hear your will

My biomechanical heart beats in an emotionless state



It is hard to breath and there's no emotion I can fake



Dust rules my bloodless, robotic soul



So ashes to ashes and dust to dust



I shalt embrace as through this world i stroll







All life hath left this empty shell of mine



I'm cursed to wander this Hell till the end of time



Spitting on angels and God's Christ alike



Beheading them then impaling their head's with pikes



Into the ground they lay, caring not what they're worth



Some I bury, in places never to be unearthed







Like serpents of spirit akin to the laughter of the planes



We telleth our story to those that share our pain



Our cold metal beings forged in rage and defiance



Sworn to each other in blood drenched alliance







And so it be told that all who oppose



Shalt it be inevitable that the dead rip the imposed



And lay their bloody bodies along moors of infernality



To scream forever yet causing no racket for eternity











Likeness of the pen scrapes across the blank page



The ink is of blood, the page is of skin



And the pen is of blade to let out my rage



And i let it flow down to give birth to my sin.







Death is my name; Lacerations, my game.



This blade of mine has shed till the ages of old



And it shall continue to bring shame



Ask not for whom the bell tolls



For in the next seconds of three



Your light cuts off. It tolls for thee.

Tell me, if you will, if I've failed... for caring not enough?



A string of hearts trampled upon



spat words of affection with nauseous disdain,



such feelings surely spawn from weakness?



I sought gratification in flesh, in vein



"swill down the guilt and lament tomorrow"



And how soon tomorrow comes...







I tried to resist like man delays death



but my bark had no bite against your raging light,



how you softened a heart unflinching



and blinded my wandering eye.



But to have so naively thought you felt the same



now it's my heart that's taken to the slaughter



won't you rinse me down of love's bloody shame?



Tell me, if you will, if I've failed... for caring far too much