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After much thought i figured I would share my only pain in this world. I sit here in the dark My wings close around me as I want nothing but to forget the pain end it all, but with a blade in my hand i cant even bring myself to do it. I want to end it all but what can i do when this Dark blood urges me to live ? When i come to this point in my life i relize i envy The cutters and the sucide watchers because they are allowed to grace death's Presents but why cant I....Why i am not Allowed the same as them...Why i am not Allowed the Blissful Peace of death..Of Silence.....Of Forever Dark Slumber....