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I feel... hurt and lost. I know that my story isn't as worse than the next persons... no...i feel like I'm in constant pain and I don’t know what to do about it... The judge isn't my friend... he isn't anything but flesh to me. This is so sad... because I want to be loved...and I wanted to love him... I am the blame for my own misery after all huh? I care about him so much... but do I really? I guess I have this issue of wanting to be loved so badly... I allow myself to get treated this way. Just so that I won't be alone... I want him to share my world with me, he rejects everything that I am. HE will never admit it... but I know he thinks the worst of me... I just wish I had no one around me... I just wished I could live on earth alone... growing my own food and filtering my water... I think I would feel a lot better; I think my heart would be healed then...