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How could i let this happen... to me? to me? I don't want this love, but im stuck... just like a cat on catnip. Your words.... your hands... your heart.... you say your soulless but i know the exact opposite to be true for you. I cannot thank you enough for everything you've done for me. Everything that we've said to each other... Everything that's happened. If I am to share this story, then I shall start all the way from the beginning....
Five years ago, you walked into my life. I was working, dancing the way that i usually do. I sat down and I couldn’t help but to be nervous while talking to you. I knew there was something about you. I just couldn’t place my finger on it. But I saw it in you that day. I had a jet black, back length straight wig on and a black laced romper. I told you my story idea ... gave you a little taste of who I am... And when i dropped one of my pasties when you came up to tip me... I remembered your smile, as you asked if you could put it back on my breast. I didn’t see you after then.


Until last November. The last day of November actually.... Four years have passed... you came right in looking directly on stage, trying to find me... trying to see if I was there working... and I saw you. Looking.... searching with his eyes... I remembered you right away. And I remember your friend who I had the dance with. From that moment I knew I was in trouble... As you watched me dance, I watched you watch me through the mirror. After I was done, I got down and went to the back to say thank you to you and your friend that tipped me. Went to the back got cleaned up came back and walked directly to you... I said hello to the others, but I knew I needed YOU. So, I asked you if you wanted a dance you surprisingly said yes. And I led you to my darkest corner. Could you believe I actually wanted your lips pressed against mines? I hoped you felt the same way about me, and when I kissed you, I didn’t have to hope anymore. I knew it was you and you found me once again. You see... this isnt the first life me and him have been together. I knew this when I first heard your voice, your lips against mines did nothing but confirm it. You would later to tell me that we have done this before, in a previous life.... further confirming my theory. But let's not get too far ahead. Those kisses were the only thing on my mind for the rest of that night... all until the following day, when you texted me. I forgot I gave you my number, and I instantly to hot while texting to you. From that point on we continued to message each other daily, you came in to my job to watch me dance and kiss my lips. It got to the point where I didn’t want to take your money anymore and kiss you where everyone could see us. To let everyone know that I am yours and you are mines... I could never get these images and feelings out of me, no matter how much I write... no matter how much I talk about you. You will always be in my mind. The little problem we have is that he's married, and yes, I know I know... he will never be mines. Hence which brings us to almost 9 months later. We still message each other daily. But I honestly want him to do better with himself and his family. I suggested that he focus on them... and So he has... I tell him earlier this week that I will not be messaging as much, and he says: “I feel the same but don’t disappear please”. I mean what am I supposed to say? I could tell him the truth about how much me being in love with him is killing me from the inside out.... I could tell him that he's the only one that I've ever loved this much and its killing me. So my first story journal entries will be about me and mein herr.