Out there, somewhere, you're there, looking up at the same sky, seeing the same starts, gazing at the same moon, wondering the same thoughts. We want for the same things and follow the same dreams.
But, we will never walk the same path.
I have known for a long time that I would never find you, that you who would igite my soul would forever be out of reach. It was a sad tiding but one that could not be avoided. Such a priviledge is not afforded to the damned.
I wire this now to say goodbye to one I never met, so that a dream may finally die and with it a part of me. Its for the woman I should have met, who would have given me a reason to live, to press on, to fight. I'll never get to know your name, hear your voice, see your smile or touch your hand. All I can do is wish that you are happy and that all you strive for comes to fruition, and that, on some small level, in that place in the heart where the unseen is felt, you know I was there, somewhere, with you, always.
So, I let go of everything, the dreams, the hope, the feelings. This part of me must die for the rest to live. I cannot be tormented by a want that will never be fulfilled. We will never know one another, never share our memories nor make new ones together. I will never get to tell you those three words that can give a person so much strength yet at the same time make them completely vulnerable. Much will be left undone.
But, that is my course in life. I am a damned man, and damned men life and die alone, hollow and forgotten.
So, goodbye, the one who should have been my love. I wish you the best and hope that in the next lifetime our souls will finally be united in joy.
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