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I have cried so long for everyday

I have prayed to god to make the pain go away

Every year something happens

I am betrayed

Sometimes my own doing and sometimes their doing its hard to say



As I try to move on

I try to forget my memories

they hurt so bad they just wont go away

Everyday I am reminded of them in some kind of way



Why cant I be left alone when i try to restart

Seems like something is trying to keep me in the dark

It tortures, haunts me, and taunts me so much

I think I am going to be happy and its all ripped away



Yes I have made mistakes in the past

but should they really haunt me so

I guess so, seems that everyone thinks that way

What a shame, I have forgiven every wrong done to me in every kind of way

The abuse, the rape, the molestations forgiven

WHY THE HELL CANT THE PAST BE THE PAST



God hates me I see it now

He wont even let me escape

I have tried in so many ways

Yet I am still here being tortured in so many ways



I ask myself if this is hell

Then I answer myself, "In so many ways"

I will complete this in a few days

It just depends on how this plays out

Happy ending or sad ending?

We sure as hell will find out.



All is not fine

I cant believe I wrote these rymes

I cant believe I fell this time

Meh oh well its time to move on.

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LadyArorah
10:07 Feb 11 2009

Well done...

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