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I Devoure An Ocean, But The Thirst Remains

I Pulled Away And Lost The Restrains

The Taste Can Never Be Replaced........NO TIME TO FINISH

I Quiver In The Darkness

Unable To Slumber

I Toss & I Turn

As I Think Of The Hunger

I Feed Only On Thoughts

And My CArcass Just Rots

I Look For A Reason To Make A Choice

But All I CAn Hear Is The Fucken Voice

THe AGony Increases

Im Left With Just Pieces

I Want To Escape Into My Own DAMNATION

But To My Pityful Life I Find No Explanation

AGRAVATED AND TENSE

IM ATTACKED BY MY MINDS OWN DEFENSE

UNSTABLE THOUGHTS KEEP ME AWAKE

I CANT CONTAIN BLEDING WHEN I SHAKE

I STARE AT THE WALL & SEE ONLY ILUSIONS

THIS SICKNESS HAS BROUGHT NO RESOLUTIONS

I SLAUGHTER MY DREAMS

HEARING ONLY MY SCREAMS

I KNOW THAT IM INSANE

LEFT ONLY WITH LUST

LEAVING PAIN AS A MUST

MY MOUTH IS NOW DRY

IM FORCED TO BELIEVE MY OWN LIE

I have destroyed what I so hard have fought to build with blood sweat and piss. I have found that I myself have led to my own deceit I have chosen to take this painful path that has no ending and no beginning making no difference in which direction I head. The simple thought makes me want to be erased from the forsaken world better yet from this you call a life I don't know. I wish I could find the answers to all my problems to fix all the mistakes then again if I never made the mistakes or had the problems how would this life be interesting. I know Im contradicting myself with everything I say or do but what the use Im useless. I have found myself procrastinating all my life I find no use for myself here as if I was a mistake. There's no point in being here I cannot relieve myself from everything I make matters worse because I choose to I enjoy to suffer why I cannot say I just do. I have found I am my own NEMESIS I add wood to my fire which already burning to disaster built by them I have been told I choose to be this way and I do I wish to be worse for more power more, more, more. The Only Though That Remains In My Head Is That "What Good Is All The Pain? If You Have No One To Share It With"....................

I hate myself for doing this to myself but what can i say im a constant fuck up i was raised to think that and well now i am that my whole lived life is a blur BUT LAST NIGHT WAS AND WILL BE UNFORGETABLE......



1.Tequila:I Feel Empty and an outcast i have no place here Ive known This But i try To Fill Up What Is Missing with more Pain......



I Dig Deeper And Take Another Pill



2.Tequila:I Begin To Fill The Emptiness With Self -Pity And Self-Inflicted Pain I Begin To Fell Numb I Have Found My Place And I Drift Futher Into DArkness It All Stands Still......



I Dig Deeper And Take Another Pill



3.Tequila:I No Longer Feel Alone I Find A COmpanion In The Bitter And Sweat Taste Replacing Where Once My Emotions Reigned I KNow NO One I AM No One......



I Dig Deeper And Take Another Pill



4.Tequila:Only Her Memories Help Me To Stay Alive I Hate To See Her Showered In Tears I Hate To See Her Hurt......



I Dig Deeper And Take Another Pill



Floor



I Drift Into A Well Known Place......



Nothing Is Unfamiliar I Recognise Every Face......



I Believe I Have Done What I Wanted For So Long......



My Presence Is unknown and causes no disruptions......



GoodBye Cruel World



I Awaken In A Well Known Place Needle In Arm And An Unwanted Charm Irealise Where I Am And I Am Certain That Once Again I have Failed

IM SORRY FOR BEING A CONSTANT FUCK UP

IM SORRY FOR BEING UNABLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY

IM SORRY FOR EVER METTTING YOU

IM SORRY FOR RUINING YOUR LIFE

IM SORRY FOR BEING DIFFERENT

IM SORRY FOR LOVING YOU SO MUCH

IM SORRY FOR TRYING TO MAKE YOU SMILE

IM SORRY FOR BEING BORN

IM SORRY FOR STILL BEING ALIVE

IM SORRY FOR NOT BEING PERFECT

IM SORRY FOR BEING STUBORN

IM SORRY FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE

IM SORRY FOR SPEAKING MY MIND

IM SORRY FOR BEING MY FIRST THOUGHT EVERYDAY

IM SORRY FOR NEVER LYING

IM SORRY AS I LAY DYING......



IM SORRY

Youve Captivativated me, and taken my Heart

In my eyes you are the greatest work of Art

Though We Just met

Mind has been set

To Love you and care

I so honorably swear

To protect and please

All youre demands and needs

You bring Rapture and Bliss

No one has done this

Though my thoughts are unstable

I delete all the sorrow

And wonder If Ill see you Tommorow

I give u my heart and all my devotion

Giving me life, Once again An Emotion

You may dislike my negative thoughts

WIthought You Love , My INSIDE ROTTS

Father Of Darkness



Give Me Wings To Take Flight



Father Of Darkness



Give Me Sight To Reign The Night



Father Of Darkness



Give me Strength To Be My Own



TO SEND MY PREY

TO THE UNKNOWN



Though I Am Not Worthy Of Thy Presence



I Plead Only For One Request



To Stalk The Night



And Fear The Light



To Feast Upon My True Delight



To Rip The Skin



And Break The Bones



TO TAKE THE BLOOD OF



MORTAL SOULS

Subverted From Birth & Never At Peace



My Trivial Life Must Now Cease



Theres No escape For I Am Wretched



Only Consumed To Be Rejected



Always Intruding, Iam Abortive



Never To Find Someone Devoted



Listless Through All My Abjected



All Your Lies Are now Reflected



Sel-Seclusion Beyond The Shadows



Inside A Cage That Nevger Rattles



My Body Slowly Lacerated



With No Regret Nor Dread, I Waited



To One And All Let It Be Known



That In The End Were All Alone

The Cold Breeze Of The Night Veils Me WIth Sorrow



Iam Everything & Nothing, Iam Hollow



Dead Leaves Dance Along Empty Streets



Now Listen Closely & Count The Beats



The Moonless Skies Shine With Stars



My Minds Prison Withought Bars



Trees Remain, Dead, Dry, & Bare



Lonelyness Intoxicates The Air



Unknown Shadows Gently Slither



Iam Empty, Iam Bitter



Time Passes But Never Mends



Malicious Thoughts, Slowly Decends



Maimed By Light And Unwillingly Recluse



Damned No Matter What I Choose

My Pupils Now Dilated



My Pulse Is Excelarated



Anxious & Waiting



Life, Now Slowly Fading



I Rip The Skin To find The Bone



Nothing Is Left, My Hearts A Stone



The Revolves, I Cannot Move



I Realise Now, I Have Nothing To Prove



Darkness Falls, As Blood Stains The Walls



I Inhale Once More, And My Skin Crawls



Fueled By Hollow Hatred



My Death Now Elaborated I Scream To Implore



Continue Living, What For?



I WItness My Own Degeneration



Slowly Leading To The End Of This Abomination

As The Numbness Slowly Consumes Me



Lonelyness Embraces And Wont Let Me Be



I Would Search For Tranquility



Pain Will Be My Infinity



I Try To Flee And Never Return



Now The Fire Inside Will No Longer Burn



Ive Realised That In The End We Have Nothing



Reality Crumbles At My Feet



Making My Insitions Farther Deep



Ghosts From My Past Reveal Untold Truths



I Remain Mute,Lost,&Unseen



A Labyrin Secludes My Thoughts



The Simple Bliss Now Rotts



Having No Limits, Far Less Expectations



I Stand Still, Allowing Everything To Drift



I Fade Away With The Smoke



And Drink Away To Numbness



My Departure Goes Unoticed



Silence Began & Silence Remains



Forever