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today,dear heart,but just today. The sun shines over all. The roses crimsoning in the air along the garden wall. Then let the dreams and dreamer die. Whatever shall be,shall be. Today will still be the thine and mine. To all eternity. And oh,there is no glory dear. When all the world is done. There is no splendor lasteth out the sinking sun. There is nothing that last,not one. When we have turned to clay. But this: you love me-all the rest fades with the world away. So little while,so little while. This world shall last for us. There is no way to keep it,dear. But just to spend it thus: there is no hand may stop the sand from flowing away. But he who turns the whole glass down and dreams 'tis day!

know you because you are me and i am you. Together,we are one and one is what we shall remain,unchanged by any catalyst. Yet,even though i know you,i do not know you. I recognize myself,but you are not familiar anymore. You have changed,changed into someone who you yourself would not see in the aged mirror down the hall. I used to touch you and feel what you feel. Yet,now the hands of the clock have taken you away fro me. These hands have stolen you from me and they refuse to give you back. And now,i am alone,with myself. We are no longer the same,because the hands of the clock have changed you. Now,i sit by myself,wandering amongs my own path. Your presence is still here to guide me,but i am left to act my own. Here i am,to say goodbye,for you are gone. Woe to you,O,damned hands of the clock. You have stolen me,and i am left alone.

i am going insane!! Locked in my rubber room. Bouncing off the walls. The walls of doom. Body being destroyed. It was never made right. I know i'll probably go soon. Not without a fucking fight!! I won't let it control me! I haven't yet. It can't take me! I haven't yet. Pills,Pills,Pills!!! Gotta take 'em to be safe. Fix me!! I beg you!! I hate living like this!! Yo don't understand. You just work on it. Doctor!! Doctor!! Have you ever had it?? You're so innocent. Just doing your job. Telling me that i am fine. While i feel trapped in time. Get it out!! Take it away!! Stop this shit!! I can't live like this!!!! Bouncing insane off these walls. Fix me now,please!! Before i fall..

i have a bunch of thumb tacs,uttered in my head. I can feel them dancing. Before i go to bed. My mind is being thorn. From the inside out. When it comes to sanity. I really have my doubts. What is this that i am writting? What makes you think i am lost? I fear that i should go soon. For i cannot pay the cost..

thru the tears i see the face that always makes me smile. Even though you don't always know. I love you all the while. For me it's hard to set free. But for you i'll try my very best. For it hurts me to know that i am pushing your love the the test. You are all that matters. Without you near i'll never succeed. You're the strength i need. With you i am all i ever need to be.

i am dressed in my finest black. Standing silent in rememberance of you. This is the final hour and there is no coming back. This is where the ''last time'' comes true. I lay the memones that we had to rest. No marker will mark this loney tomb. Now at the end we know what would have been best. Even if this all had to end soon.. I lay this bouquet across the loney ground. Beckoning the pipers to play one more time. Shed my last tear here with no one around. Then turn and erase you from my mind. My heart though will remember for a while. Even as the joy grip of the loss makes me smile. And forget you at the last toll of the bell. Farewell and goodbye my friend. This is the last time i write about you.

can you feel the devils fiddle. Tuning up to play my tune. I am the last true riddle. But the questions will end soon. The horizon is calling. The light begins to rise. This is me falling. Savor this moment with your eyes. I will just fade away. The dust will spread through time. My heart is now empty. I cross the final line. To many new sorrows. Enter my soul deep within. I am running out of tomorrows. To start over again. My face is a ghost. Of one who left me behind. The things i want the most are the things i hurt each time. But now my velvet darkness. Soothes my suffering soul to make it to fates promise. Is now my only goal. I cannot take you with me. Cause all i have is where i've been. And you just shouldn't be. Blamed for all this sin. Farewell to my lovers. Farewell to my friends. There will be no others. This is where my heart ends.

steal me from this dream that never ends. I walk around like a zombie in a daze. Trapped in my routine. Hypnotized by your seet gaze. You're taking me over. I am going under. Drowning in your magic. Waiting by the old known path of solitude. My sadness embraces me and drains me. Time stands still in your arms,but now is catching up. One step at a time. I lose my mind. The sorrow brings me to tears. My heart poisoned by love. I drift alone through life. Lovely fantasy caresses my hand. To feel again,to know again. Of a kiss and loving ambrace. The lovers separated by fate. The lonely maiden enchanted by death.

the eclipsed light is all i see. Stark fantasies have to end. Turn your killing eyes from me. And let me live again. Silently my soul disappears. Within the shadow of hopes light. Moments seem to turn to years. As i search for my long lost sight. A fantasy,a reality. What is real just now? I have lost the ability to know what's it all about. The shadow of lost love falls on me. I am a victim to my mind. Causing me to never truly see. That you could never really be mine. Slowly the sorrow crosses your light and i can't see your love at all. I strain my eyes,losing my sight. As darkness begins to fall. Sorrow really never ends. It merely waits and bids its time. Till a new hurt happens again and it embraces you and calles you ''mine''. What is the point to this? What am i trying to say? I will give you one final kiss. And slowly fade away..

i left the light on while i waited for you. I kept the door open to let you thru. I listened for the phone while i took a bath. Nothing at all happened,the time just passed. Someday you'll learn to open your heart and give over to trust. I know it's ''easier said than done''. But one day you'll listen and the battle is won. The bruises go away and the cuts will peal. The mental is harder but those too will heal. Don't stay and wait. They never do change. The pain just continues untill you never wake. Whenever you're ready i am here fore you. I'll let you in. I'll go thru it with you. Don't make the mistakes i have made. Let's change it now before it's to late..

the days past by. Am i still alive. I thought i died. Without you by my side. I was never yours. You were never mine. Closed doors. No pearing inside. Broken floor boards. Shattered glass. Love never lasts. Open windows. Full moon. Light appearing from your room. Burning candles. Rottening flesh. Ghostly figure at my side. Moving shadows. Disappearing light. How could i stab him..it felt so right..

pathetic tears sliding down your face. Shut up you little girl,you sicken me. You're the beaten dog whinning at the feet of your masters. Begging for attention,only to be shuned.so run away miserable child. Ponder why no one could love a parasite like you. Weep your tears of self loathing and desperation. You are the insignificant toy tossed aside,only good for a moment of amusement. Mirror, mirror on the wall. You say the most horrid things of all. A nuisance,you're the thorn in everyone's side. A putrid mess plaguing the earth and soiling humanity. An addity that no one could ever feel affection towards. Lay in a puddle of your own self pity,atleast you understand how worthless you are. Shattered mirror,shards of glass. You're an eternal reminder of my desolated past.

between the boughs of oaks he flies. Cirradas sing their mournful cries. Dirges of the brave who've died. Their honour bound by women that lied. Verdict cast by truth contrived. For all their hate my true love died. He never wept but mearly sighed. As his ashes burnt were carried high. And from that day i swore they'd die. Tooth for tooth and eye for eye. And when they begged to let them die. I'd thred doom through the needless eye. And as i lay and watch them cry. I'd say goodnight it's time to fly..

the child of darkness spreads his arms over his victims. The beg of him. Please,please don't hurt me again. He ignores their pleas. They drop to their knees. And another one bites the dust. We're all in terror. For the child of darkness is out to get us one by one. He lives on the fear he puts into us. Soon it will be judgment day. The child of darkness can no longer play..

i close my eyes and try to hold back the tears. Time's changing every day. The love i held for you is turning dim and gray. The times you held me so close and tight. I thought that everything would be alright. I was wrong,again which is nothing new. I was wrong about everyone i loved. I never thought i'd be wrong about you..

though i walked through the valley. In the shadow of death,i turn'd to face. To draw final breath. I am worried of change. I feared the pain of life,of death,of birth again. I turn'd to face the sum of my fears. My eyes were closed from terror and tears in a trice they were open. My horror repealed. The fear removed. The truth revealed. Rebirth would cause pain. Yet i feared none. For my vision was cleared. Life's blindless was gone. At once i saw that death was not there. My panic returned,was he ever here? My lord!! I shrieked. Return to my aid. Was there ever life to never be made?! Presently i died and i was born again to show the world the beauty of a black rainbow.

i sit here alone and worthless. Nothing done,nothing to do. I hate the world as it passes by my window. And leaves me behind the glass as windows often do. I am done crying for my life to change. I am done waiting for someone to call my name,cause u am dying..dying in this forthless. Alone i cry weak and lifeless,cause you never called my name. And i am begging for a change. Weak and lifeless..dying..dying for you to change. I beg that it be taken. The pain of the past leaves me weeping. I swallow it down like bitter medicine. I want the silver spoon full sugar again. I swore to slave to never be. But a broken child you will always see. Come here and choke the bloody life out of me. Stomp my broken heart till it stops to beat. If it makes you feel any better to watch me bleed. I am done crying for my life to change. I am done waiting for someone to call my name,cause i am dying..dying in this forthless,cause you never called my name and i am begging for you to change. Weak and lifeless..dying..dying for you to change.

i am the black rose,among all the red. And though no one knows,i have no tears to shed. Covered in the ashes ,that i burned myself. I am buried in my past. And what i have dealt. I probably should have known,that i'd pay for what i've done. But the truth is,i've grown. And in the end i have won. There is so much i've learned. Despite the circumstances,and i know i didn't really earn all those second chances. I didn't even try my best. All i did was play my game. I failed the unwritten test. Smothering me in charcoal shame. It was only later did i see who i had become. Lost in a red,red sea and i the only black one. I am sure beneath the waves,trapped in memories and time,there are a few we didn't save,and who we'll never find,but as i stand here and look around this garden,few friends remain there while so many have fallen. In the weeds that keep returning and in the colorless world of green. It's hard to keep on yearning for what used to be seen. A rainbow of flowers,old and new without much clutter and the enemies few. But it's this that makes me shudder. To think what we had in our hands what has drifted and fell. From soil to sand. Who we once were-no one can tell. This garden is astray in a drought. Trapped in a sea of troubles. It's not a wonder i don't stand out lost in this cloud of rubble. We are in black and white. This overrun garden of rotten seeds. The flosers left no light. Forgotten in lost creeds. So i suppose that's why no one really missed me,and that's the reason i don't cry. For what maybe. We are in a pit of gray. So it's easy to misplace in this dark without day. I stay in my corner now,watching tha garden overflow. Though i severally doubt anyone really knows what this mess of flowers and weeds crawling in and out every spring,really did for me or what it really means. This blooming blossom,forgotten,who no longer has a place,has found a home in... This grayish little space. And i even though i took root,so long ago no one really knows that i will never be moved. This girl...this black rose..

i am left here as time passes slowly by,killing everything in its path. It is a night of darkness,evil stalks the earth. Wisps of death fill the midnight air. People walk with fear. A timeless fear that has always been there. Since the beginning of time. Rivers of souls run down in to the earth leaving me here,to stand alone. All you can hear is the beating of a heart,the crying of a child where it mother once stood...

you know me well,i am the angel from hell. Anything you do or say connot hurt me,so just let me be. People say i am sweet,it becomes when you're beet. I talk to no one,instead i flee and run. I won't let them touch me,let me be,you only want to hurt me. When i scream you tighten it,you drug me till i throw no fit. I cannot remember when you put me in it. For there was only one candle lit. Why did they put me in a straightjacket? You locked me up in a padded-room,here is my tomb. All i want is to be free,can't you see? She made me like this. I want her face to collide with my fist. But this serves me well. I am the angel from hell...

pain becomes apart of me as i slowly die. Death is always calling me i can feel the pain inside. The burning pain that pulls away all those mortal souls. So dazed and confused they don't know where to go. They call his name. A name i know so well. His name i called before i turned hell. A place where i no longer feel the pain. Of that false god whoe doesn't have a name...

whenever you need me to listen. My heart and mind are open to you. I will reeach out into the cold to find you your bliss. And i will always keep my promises. In the clear blue waters,i can see your tears. In the icy peaks,i can see your fears. Slipping away from you is your happiness. But i will be there to put it back in. The dark mist hovers over your emotions. A wind can swiftly blow it away without your eyes catching it and that wind can be me. Whenever you need a shoulder to cry on. I am here for you. I am not there with you,but my heart and soul is. Remember my words. Remember me...

A broken mirror. A broken mirror A distorted face A shattered heart A clear distaste A fallen tear A reddened eye A downturned mouth 17 years gone by A loaded gun A finished fear A bloodied wall A broken mirror...