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Well lets start off with the first drug I ever tried..Alcohol. That started when I was about 11 years old. Me , my mother , father , brother , sister , aunt , uncle , and 5 cousinsall lived together in a 2 bedroom trailer. I was the oldest of all 8 children. My parents and aunt and uncle were alcoholics most especially my parents so needless to say if I wanted to drink I could get it very easily and I did. Hell , I had to drink to be able to put up with my parents being drunk all the time. Both of my parents wanted a way to bond with me. ( I wasnt like all the other kids) and it wasnt easy for them. I wore all black and my parents thought I was crazy and they were a little scared so when they discovered we had drinking in common they didn't hesitate to give it me. I start drinking heavy when I was 12 and I got kicked out of school twice for drinking at school. But soon that got boring so i smoked weed and ate mushrooms.(which I loved) And at the age of 14 acid was my drug of choice. Me and my parents tripped every weekend for about 3 months at which time me and my dad were also selling acid and weed. Then my dad went to prison for 18 months and i took over the business making hella money and then i discovered speed. I first started smoking it and loved it. I smoked it for about 6 months and then a friend of the family introduced me to the needle. I immediatley became a junkie and found out that my whole family were junkies too. So at 16 I admitted to my parents that I was shooting dope and told them I knew they were doing it to so we no longer hid it from eachother. My whole family was like a gang of junkies all sitting in a circle with our spoons on the table ready to get high with eachother. Me, my mon, dad, aunt, uncle, and even my grandmother were full blown junkies. Speed was our drug of choice for about 3 years. We were staying awake for about 6 or 7 days at a time. Then when I was 18 I started Shooting powder cocaine and smoking crack. I lost custody of my son and just lost all hope. I became totally careless and sold everything I had to stay high. So that I could stay numb to all the pain i had expeirienced in my life that was haunting me everyday and night. I was living in my car just hustling to make money here and there. I decided to move from Georgia to Alabama to be with my family but I had no money so I came up with the idea to sell my car for some coke so I could get sell it and buy a bus ticket to Alabama. I drove my car to the dope mans house and gave him the keys and the title for 5 grams of powder and left walking to find a place to stop and shoot some dope. I sat behind the Dollar Store dumpster and shot dope all night long and left in the morning to sell some dope. I got picked up walking by a friend and within a couple of hours I was completly out of dope and had no money at all. I wandered around for a couple of days just getting high off of friends until I managed to hustle up a little money to pay for someone to give me a ride to Alabama. I was moving to Alabama to get away from all the drugs and change my life but within the first week of being there I got strung out on heroin. That lasted for about 6 months and then came the crystal meth again . I spent the next 4 years of my life completly strung out on any drug I could find. I had my daughter when I was 20 and I stayed clean during my pregnancy and six months after her birth and then I relapsed. When she was 2 , I went to jail for manufacturing methamphetamine and did three and a half months in the county and then my case got dropped so I didn't do prison time. My grandmother got custody of my daughter . I got out of jail and went right back to getting high. I overdosed on cocaine and ice in January of 2006 but that didnt stop me .I met a great guy and fell in love but that didnt stop me either. i introduced him to the needle and created a monster. He was an addict immediatly and we were spending between 200 and 300 dollars a day on powder cocaine. One night we were getting high together and I gave him a shot that almost killed him. I thought he was dead. His eyes rolled back in his head and his heart stopped. I had seen people overdose before but never like this. He came to after a few minutes (thank God) and he didnt know where he was or who he was or what had happened. That s the moment that changed my life forever. We quit cold turkey that night and havent touched the shit since. I flushed about a gram down the toilet and never thought twice about it. We got pregnant and got married and have been clean and sober now for going on 16 months . It felt really strange at first because all Id ever known was drugs and being high. Thats all I did for 15 years. But Ive got to say being sober and being a mother to my children and a wife to my husband feels better than any drug in the world.