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man im still sick! i think its been long enough over a month and a half it seems. I really hope i start feeling better soon, well i feel better then last week so thats good. i just want to feel 100% better thats not to much to ask now is it? thats all i really have to say right now.

its been a lazy day for me. I have today and tomorrow off so im trying to do as little as possible, and recover from being sick. been getting some stuff for the newsletter for the house im in. so i guess i will not be staying at my friends house or at a hotel when i go to eau claire, I will be staying with my sister at one of her friends houses i guess. i cant wait to see my dress for my sisters wedding. i just wish that i could have lost 40 pounds before the wedding but there is no way of that happening.

its been along week mostley because im sick and couldnt get a day off work that always makes it seem really long. I have tomorrow off which is nice i need a day that i just stay in bed. anyways i get to go to my hometown march 5th. I cant wait i miss my friends alot. My brides maid dress is ready thats why im going there. And to chill. I thought about staying with my friends but im just going to get a hotel room. I like staying in them i never get to so its nice, yup dont know what to say anymore lol

So a little while ago that girl came back with her mom or dads girlfriend and they thanked us. the gurl is doing good just has frost bite on the tips of her toes. she was very lucky to have found a place to get out of the cold.

Got woke up at 5am to a pounding on the sliding door in the livingroom. there was this girl that ive seen around before i let her in. turns out that she crashed her car and and been walking outside at -13 degrees. shes lucky that she didnt freeze to death. from where her car is to my house its 2.4 miles, that would not be a good walk in the winter, I almost walked it the other night my friends truck keeps dying alot. everything is so far away up here i llived 10 miles out of a small ass town too. anyways i tryed calling someone for her couldnt get a ahold of anyone then someone pulls in our drive way and it was her dad i guess he was out looking for her and followeed her tracks to my parents house. hope shes doing better. maybe i will see her around town soon.

so yeah my throat is sore again just like it was last time, so i looked in the mirror today and its all red and has those white spots starting again. I went to the doctors onces around a month ago and the damn ass doctor told me it was just a food particle suck in my throat lol um no so i spent $86 to get told bullshit so i need to find another doctor now its not like i have the money for this bullshit man some other doctor better tell me something different this time, and man im tired of being still i just got done being sick not that long ago. I swear its from working to much and being stressed out. i really need to figure something out 3 jobs is really hard right now, my boss at subway asked me if i was going to quit yesterday i told her not right now.

its been a stressful day. ended up working 2 jobs today even though i didnt want to. was 1 hour late for my 2nd job thought that i worked at 3pm but it was 2pm opps. I dont like being late at all it really bugs me. me and my dad got into it, i was talking about how stessed i am. and he told me i dont know what stress is lol that really pissed me off. Im fuckin working 3 jobs right now been doing it for a year, cant take it anymore i never get a day off much it seems, somes somedays i work 2 jobs everyday, and last year i was in a bad relationship, helped taking care of 3 kids, was broke, couldnt get a job, couldnt pay my rent or pay my bills, hardly had money for food and really mentally unstable damn depression and not to mention moved out of my parents for the first time and more. I think that would make me really stressed out and it did I had pains in my stomach for over 3 months cause i was so freakin stressed. So dont tell me that i dont know what stress is!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cried today for 15 mins I think, told him i was sorry for blowing up with him and things are ok right now but damn he pissed me off.