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So this is what I am . All the questions are now laid to rest . Except ......... why and when . I was always there . School , work , church . Yet , I wasn't there . Something always there . It was like God was speaking . I was in denial . " This isn't right " . I was always absolutely adored . Almost envied . Then those who felt....... Well , lets just say people kept their distance because they knew something wasn't right . Or it was so right almost perfect . One woman even had nightmares of me drinking her daughters blood . She knew before I did . Yea , a vampire who stood behind a pulpit . Never preached hell and brimstone . Not my style . Just my love for human existence and that they could be better . I never saw god like they did . I didn't even worship like they did . Didn't have many friends . Too superficial for me . I would find myself often times sitting by the water in the dark . Looking up at the moon asking who am I . Now , thanks to a man I've never met , I know . It all made sense now . My love for the dark. My isolation. Always looking deeper into things others took for granted. It had been a long time since these eyes shed a tear . If they were tears of joy because I finally realized the truth , or because I was scared to death , it doesn't really matter now . Lol , still alone though . The nightmares will never go away . I will always feel shadows stalking me . Maybe more will be explained to me in the future . Or maybe I will continue to suffocate in this superficial world , in my own reality . Interpreting my own nightmares while I stare at the tombstones of loved ones that I could've trusted with this new revelation. Why I could find comfort in the dark , in my own mind. It's dark here ...........

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Grayangel
05:35 Sep 21 2011

Even in darkness there in truth that needs to be seen. The answers you seek are within all of us.

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