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AAhhh man!!! I could learn to love this. *laugh* After being on dial up for years, and waiting paiently for dsl was like waking up from a slow moving nightmare. I can so get used to this.



Not much going on in my life, work, work and more work. And babysitting of course. Oh, and house work, and laundry and caring for the horses.

Why men can't seem to understand anything that a woman tries to say to them. He can't be that blind to what it does to me when he talks on the phone with her. He doesn't have a clue and I can't explain it. I'm even worse at drawing pictures. He doesn't think he's doing anything wrong by talking to her. And he says it don't bother him if I talk on the phone to other guys. *blank stare*

How do I get beyond this?

How do I trust him after all he's done to me?

How many tears have to fall?

How much hurt will I have to live thru?

How do I understand?

How do I make him understand?



So many questions, so few answers *cries*



Sometimes I wonder why I even bother going on. When all I want to do is just lay down and give up. I don't want anyone to care, so I can just let go. Let the pain consume me and let it be over in the same breath.



I feel negative so much of the time, and I can't seem to put into words how I feel. I'm tired of living this way.



I tired period!!!

I came to this site 2 or 3 times before and never really got into it, but this time, something has drawn me to. Right now I'm working on updating my status, just not real sure how to go about doing it. I'm going along trying to make friends, but I don't want to come across to fast to soon and have people think I'm pushy. So I'm moving slow and I'll work my way up *smile*



Right now I'm trying to learn how to spruce up my profile. Since I'm a computer dummy, this is slow going. So bare with me...



I've been keeping a hand written journal, so this should be a snap.



I'll be back VR...