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     The moon silently creeps into your room as the cold wind brushes your hair. You shiver slightly as you stood up and went to the sliding glass doors of your balcony. You held unto the doors latches, not minding the chills that takes over you light frame. You didn't mind the cold it was the same feeling that holds you heart right now.



     "Everything is blank, all I feel is remorse." You recite a phrase from one of your poems. These feelings of loneliness, despair and darkness is where you reside. then you thought of your griefs.



A/N: if you have big problems on your own, skip the braced sentences below.



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You're failing in your studies and work. Success is an alien thing to you. You always make mistakes, grave ones. You only knew failure your whole life aside from those mistakes are just lucky accidents.

Your family is falling apart: your immature dad didn't stop his vices as he promised you. His mistakes gave you an illegitimate baby sister (you loved the little one, though it pains you very time to see her reminding you of your dad's broken vows.)

You were not that naive to believe that he will do what he said, but you only "hoped" that he wouldn't do it again, trying to shed a little light on your outlook in life and still it failed.

You mom, your successful and independent idol now her spirits in shambles from your dad's mistakes.

Your little brother, once your pillar of joy now a taciturn. In his senior year in high School and now facing complex problems on his own. A void of letting his emotions flow.

Your brother now as silent as you were in High School but you switched in being a hypocrite, smiling to everyone fooling yourself that you are lessening your pain

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     You braced yourself as you feel the tremors of pain taking you again. You let your stinging tears fall as you sat in the cold tiled floor.



     "Let me be, Let me fall into oblivion." your voice chokes as you recite. You know that you are a pesimist and that it will never change.



     /People are shortsighted/ you thought /why should I be different? I am a retched human as well./



     You hold your legs close to your chest and cried your heart's grievances, darkness is where you will always be. You cried in the silent safety of your room, no one there for you. Nobody to coimfort you or pity your state. In your own sanctity, between the world and your locked room.



     "Someone. Please." you mutter "take me away."