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Yes, revenge is such a lovely word and more lovely thing to do. I indeed found satisfication of doing it bit by bit. A very slow torture I might add. It constantly goes on as you read this...

     

But I must implore you never to do this for there are certain side effects and it will comeback to you a thousandfold.



For me? As of now, I couldn't careless... about the consequences of my actions might be, because I have my own sense and scale of morality, which for the society believes as an immoral one.

     

It never matters... there is only one sense I currently feel. The sense of triumph over my peers... and I must say, "I admire it with all my black little heart."

I've pondered on it for sometime and the answer came up on me like a lightning would struck a tree on a vast plain...



I was used, used by what I had considered as my friends... My classmates they all made me look stupid infront of all. I became their puppet their little dummy played into a crowd of rabid lunatics and I didn't even notice.



Damn!!! I was such a THICKHEAD puppet! I let myself be fooled by this insolent miscreants. How could I have been so careless!





Yes, I was a damn fool, I was played at, laughed at, and I was like an ignorant slave saying "thank you master!".



Well they'll better be prepared for my grudges runs deep... I bear them everyday... and I never forget... They haven't seen the real me yet.

     

Doesn't feel like it... though there were certain times I felt that way. Maybe right know I'm not quite morbid enough to sense it.

     

But why? Is it of my existence? Am I happy that I still breathe, that my heart is still constantly beating in my chest?



No, that is not the reason. These things are of no importance for me, and their presence are still left unnoticed by me everyday.

     

It is not the time for answers, then. I'll leave this dilemma unanswered, so I might ponder on this thoughts of mine.