Goodbye03:52 Sep 07 2010
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**************CAUTION: USE OF PROFANITY AND VULGAR LANGUAGE AND TERMANOLOGY***********************************
I am officially dissowning my father. He is nothing. I have faced too much pain from you, too many tears have been shed over your worthless carcass. I'm glad you found YOUR "real" family. It will NEVER be mine. So yes God, SMITE ME DOWN! I am not honoring my mother and father. If he wanted to be honored, he should have honored me. ENJOY that real family Bruce. Because you lost your ONLY flesh and blood.
Are you happy yet Bruce. Does this REAL family make you happy? Because I know DAMN well that two of them often aren't happy with you. Do you want to know something? I'm damn right GLAD you showed me what an abusive being is like personality wise, attitude, habits, how you handel things. Care to know WHY ?! I am now prepared to face forward and avvoid that situation in my later life. I am still young, I have time to live an experience things, however young I am though I now have already been there and done that on abuse. I find it ironic that I made the following photo litterally minutes before dad came in that morning during spring break. And just the night before, not only had I cried myself to sleep, I had had a step bitch who may as well have been growling glaring at me telling me that, the only reason to lock a door is because you are breaking rules. Thanks, didn't know being an emotional teenage girl who didn't want someone randomly walking in on me bawling my eyes out and unable to speak because of something that I KNEW felt so terribly wrong. Hell, even the night before that I had cried myself to sleep, texting Joey Baker that something bad was going to happen. Do you remember that joey?
Well Bruce, as I know from experience of kicking that general area, go grow a pair, and don't prey on those below you, weaker then you. Man UP and don't leave marks like the one that caused the scar thats finally faded almost entirely away on someone because they told you they weren't ready to do something.
There are only 2 things I still need you for, Health Insurance, and my stuff. Yes, thats right, where ever you moved my shit to from the room at your house that you redid for Kameron in one summer ((yet, how many times did I ask to re-do it and you said you couldn't afford it?)) that was all mine, whatever you did with that, I want it. It is still mine.
Contact me or my mother as to how we shall go about retrieving that.
Thank you
have an aweful life
Love never and for nada,
Emma - the child of a single mother, and noone else
**sidenote: the picture wont load**
A Snapshot of My Room
07:27 Sep 06 2010
Times Read: 564
This section is just a description of my room as I look around it, just to give you a feel of what I like, what I do, my focuses in the room, etcetera etcetera etcetera, and well, I think you get the idea :)
Upon my lavander shelves are rows upon rows of booke that have been shoved into every nook and crany the shelves have to offer. Upon the top of the shelves I have my alarm clock, laptop (when not in use), and a lava lamp, as well as smaller things like a little wooden puzzel of a kangaroo, small glass animals upon a hand carved wooden leaf, a rather large white ceramic piggy back that my great grandmother gave me when I was a mere 2 years of age. I also have a pink teddy bear propped up around other various "treasures"
I have 2 shelves upon my dresser in the outcove of my wall. They are cluttered, yes, but my room is small and lacks proper housing for majority of the items until I clean my office for proper use. I have a various assortment of soccer, dance, basketball, and softball trophies as well as ribbons from years past of baking contests, the random talent show entry, and just the sort of ribbons that friends give you to brigten up your day and leave you with the whisper of a smile upon your face. I have at all times myblack, square, mini telivision, one of the old ones that I had as a child to watch when not playing with the old VHS player built in that has gone through many years of my childhood, pressing stickers around the screen of it. Next to it you can find my little pac man joy stick plug in so I may play on my television when so driven to do, and my original VHS copies of Alice in Wonderland and the Nightmare Before Christmas. Among the other space on the bottom shelf you can find various books, CDs, lotions, perfumes, trinkets, clothes, and those likes.
Now for the upper of the 2 shelves. Upon this shelf you may find gag gifts, displayed from friends. A puzzle orb that took me a mere 20 minutes to complete, as well as a polk-a-dotted bucket containing random objects from my childhood, one time I reached in and pulled out a pirate Ken head :). There are various hatts and collections displayed across one section of the shelf, and other then generic clutter that is about all there.
My bed is my wonderously warm safe haven, when ever I am in a down mood you may find me curled up underneath my warm green comforter that fades from deep grass green, to the yellow-green crayola would try and trick people into believing was a true green ((pssst, it's really yellow, but don't tell ;) )). I take up a mere 6th of my bed while sleeping, so at any given time you may find heels, clothing, pillows, blankets, plushies, markers, coloured pencils, sketch pad, jewelry, pens, hair brushes, makeup, and well, I think you can get the point ^-^
At the foot of my bed is an eliptical, :P. Beyond that point is a lime green chest that pre-dates my birth containing a random assortment of objects that I fear to open it and find. Upon it is a stack of shoe boxes and clothing as well as NUMEROUS pillows.
Beside the chest I have aqquired a stack of 3 navy blue drawers to place my objects into. The bottom drawer is filled with my memories time spent in Australia. I absolutely adored it there! The middle drawer is more craft supplies and yarns with my crochet hooks :) The top of the 3 drawers my random junk drawer as all people have. You may reicive something from this drawer if you are my partner in any random trades or stuffed envelope style trades. Upon the stack of drawers you will find my favorite birthday gift I have recieved - a hand made pet rock made from a river rock that my friend painted into the face of the Mad Hatter and then preceeded to put orange hair upon it, a gap between the teeth, and a hat with the PROPER fraction tucked inside the band of the top hat. You may also find a globe with little dots of where I have traveled to and an amber geode that I cracked somewhere in North Carolina some years ago.
Well..... that sounds about it I think. If I change my room around, I'll let ya know :P
COMMENTS
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deathrydr
22:46 Sep 27 2010
You now have me and I will always be there when you cry babe, you have my word....HUGS YOU....
markus666
20:33 Oct 03 2010
Wow. Is her loss. For now on, girl, think only about you. Hell with others. You are an Individual with your own individuality. reality is always a shock at the beginning, but, we get used to it. So, my darling friend, I take my "handkerchief" and I will wipe the tears of your eyes and for now on, I will be always at your side. :)