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I hate you

I detest you

I loathe you

I can’t stand to be near you

I despise the way you act

I can’t bare the way you treat me

You kick me around like your dog

You are only here when you want to be

Never when I need you

I cried for you and you laughed

I screamed at you to care

But you turned your back

Who are you to tell me what to do?

Who are you to tell me how to act?

You say you are going to come over

But the drive way is always empty

You say you are going to call

But the phone never rings

I am no longer going to be your puppet

Because I am cutting the strings

I am no longer your dog that you can kick around

Because I am tuning into a wolf that will knock you down

I hate you

I love you

I want you

I despise you

I adore you

I loathe you

I can't get you out of my mind

Every time I close my eyes I see you

Every time I open my eyes I see the pain

My flesh still feels

My heart is stone

Ice pumping thru my veins

You said no more pain

Here I am in tears

Wishing these images in my mind would go away

You’re my past

You’re my pain

My essence is enslaved in a prison of hate and ache

Why when I let you in you tear me down

Down into darkness where no one can reach me

Down into a place that is forever locked

Down into my own stone heart

My own rage is my own escape

Im no longer weak

I’m no longer here

I’m no longer the same girl you lied to

I’m no longer her

You had a chance to save me

To have me

To hold me

But most of all you had a chance to love me.

This is my first story, its not my best but hope you enjoy it.







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As the sun sets over the horizon I think to my self, why must we live in such a persecuted world? What does peace mean? I have already died my body is here but my soul is lost forever. Why do people feel so alone but really they are far from it, in Gods eyes we are equal, but he is not here so what does it matter. Why do people die. Why do we have to die to live forever questions, everyone has them but why so many? It is now dark the sun has died and the moon has been born, When well my questions final be answered, and if they are will I be alive, now any questions?

You sit in your room with the lights out thinking. Thinking about what? Ha! I don’t think you even know. Now your creped out, you’re thinking, “How does she know that?” You laugh at me, you make fun of me, you laugh at the way I look, and think, act and, smell, but I’m not so different from you. But I know what you think, how you fell all because that I am like you or if you don’t want to think about it that was then look at the person on you left or right, you are different from them. If you make fun of them that why shouldn’t they make fun of you “Why does on often need courage to be different from others?” (Edgar Allan Poe, 1826) You sit in your room with the lights out thinking to yourself.

How many are there?

How many where there?

Why?

I loved you with all my heart and this is the thanks I get.

It is one thing to lie about all the other girls but for me to catch you and you still lie?

Why?

What did I do?

I knew you where low, but this low.

Why?

You would get mad at me just to think about looking at a guy and here you are making out with a girl.

What did I do wrong?

Why?

I am sorry for what I did I had no right to talk to you like this, but I have no heart you took it then broke it!

I loved you more then anything.

Why?

No more pain, wow that sounds good.

This is the last time you hurt me.

Good-bye my friend.

I am not your stuffed animal that you can kick around anymore