The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

well, i had my ECG - only it wasnt an echocardiogram like my doc recommended - it was just an Electrocardiogram - and after three months of waiting and over an hour of tests the results are - inconclusive. i have an enlarged heart due to my cardiomyopathy, and i need to have an echocardiogram to see exactly what that means before they can decide what to do. Hello? isnt that what i said three moinths ago? sometimes i just feel like giving up.

ten days to go, and counting. thats when i have an appointment to see a cardiologist and have an ECG. i'm starting to get scared now. my beliefs mean nothing, because i am always fuelled by doubt. what if..... what if the end is just around the corner? what if there is no kind of afterlife or rebirth? what if there is only nothingness? that really scares me - damnation i can face, but nothingness???. what if i am not imortal?