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UGH! I gotta get out of this shit hole I live in....flooding basement, no rights, fire hazard...low ceiling....GOD!

* Slum Lords, like my Landlord



* HEAVY Rainfalls



* Being stuck in my crossroads



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* SNOW!! God, it's a fucking BLIZZARD out there...UGH! I just wanna go HOME & Hibernate!



* People who play mind games with you...Seriously, make up your fucking minds already!!!



* People who kill people...GET SOME FUCKING HELP!!!



* Teen violence...If you have a problem with someone, then STAY AWAY FROM THEM!! It's not worth killing them, because then you lose your freedom, & life. Plus, you put people you don't even know, who loved the person you killed, you make them suffer...NOT that person that was killed by your hands. They are gone....Their Loved ones, however, have to live on, suffering because the one they loved was taken by some stupid little punk who was just plain fucking retarded



* Older perverted men, who eye women like myself up & down. Seriously, I AM NOT A FUCKING PIECE OF MEAT!! DON'T EVEN FUCKING LOOK AT ME!!!

I am scared of going to mum's tommorow....I'll be with her & my aunt, who I haven't seen in over 10 years, which will be fun.....But, I have to be around her asshole husband. God, I hate him....He's one of the main reasons I got kicked out in the first place.....

Wow, it's been a week already! I have been single for a whole week. I have been through all the stages, and I am bouncing back. I have also taken this week to indulge myself, and not worry about anyone else except for me. I don't think I even want to get into a relationship again. I think I am just, for the most part, gonna enjoy the single life....If I were to get asked out though, I wouldn't turn it down if I was attracted to the person too...but I'm just not gonna get serious with anyone, cuz no one deserves serious committment from me.

I am fucking sick and tired of my highs and lows....It's fucking depressing. Maybe this time it's just because I'm exhausted...I dunno. I'm going back to bed. No one is on to talk to, & I am bored of games......I need to get laid soon, or my brain is gonna explode

I am very much enjoying the single life:)

My heart is bleeding, and burning right now. Aubrey broke up with me last night, Love is not worth opening your heart to getting hurt over & over again

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LaceworkLacerations
17:56 Dec 15 2008

Yes it is, because eventually you will find someone who will not hurt you like that.



it hurts bad now, and it's supposed to. But things do get better--although i know perfectly well that you don't want to hear that right now. Hugs. You'll find someone who loves you.

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Freedom...no encumbering man to answer to! I am sooo living it up now! xD

God, why do men have to be such shitty, unromantic, cold, not understanding assholes?? I am Bi, so I think I am gonna quit going for men, and stick stricktly to chicks, fuck men, they aren't good for anything except friendship

I know these are getting annoying, but I need to relieve my bitchiness at these annoyances somehow! If these annoy you, then don't fucking read them!! It's MY journal - DEAL WITH IT!!! xD



* People who tell me that my profile needs to be updated, edited, whatever.....It's MY profile, not yours, therefore, I will do what I like with it

* My kitten, Veda, when she scratches me....the last time she did it, she got my face.....I threw her across the room

* People making nasty comments....This writing in these things are my way of getting out some of my shit. If I don't put down exactly WHAT, that is because I don't usually air ALL my dirty laundry for complete strangers that can use it to judge me

* Organized religion...Where in the Bible does it say that "Thou MUST go to Church every Sunday", "If thou is not self-ritious, thou WILT go to Hell", or "Thou MUST read the Bible daily"?.....I didn't fucking think so....until you show me EXACTLY where it says that shit, shut the fuck up & stop trying to push your bullshit in my face....it just pisses me off more at you & God

* Commercialized Christmas....You ALWAYS hear the propaganda about "Christmas Joy".....Why the HELL do people get sooo god damn pushy, rude & mean when they are rushing around Christmas shopping? Someone is rushing to get that last in stock Ipod for their spoiled little brat, & they push you out of the way with their over loaded shopping cart as you reach for it, and they snatch it up, and hurry away, nose in the air, while you are left rubbing your side where they deliberatly whacked you out of the way....



That's it for now

I hate Christmas

* Smoker's cough...Mine is getting worse day by day

* Being alone....I'm 99% of the time alone, so ya, I am daily pissed off! xD

* The insomnia monster...He won't fucking leave me alone

* The fatigue monster...I sleep away most of the day, and yet no matter how much sleep I get, I am TIRED!!!



That's it for now

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Oceanne
21:49 Dec 12 2008

I think I would be going to the doctor if I were you.Or get yourself up and out of that bed and do something that actually makes you tired.

Ever think about quitting the smoke poles?

Sounds like youre sick n tired of being sick n tired.

So do something about it.

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I hate myself right now...like, utterly & totally hate myself...I deserve to die

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Sinora
08:21 Dec 12 2008

Okay, so what did you do ?

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* Perfume...I am allergic to it, and it makes me sick when I catch a whiff of it

* Hunger...sometimes, I don't have food in my cupboard, so I have to starve until I can access the food bank....:(

* Fleas....my kitten has them, and since she is an indoor cat, I have NO idea how she could've got them, and they are making her spaz out

* Getting hit on, unless it is a chick hitting on me....I feel uncomfortable with guys doing it...they scare me

That's it for now:)

What grinds my gears:

* Being called an "attention seeker" b/c of my cutting, or "emo" If I was either, I would show my cuts off to anyone I come in contact with, which I don't. For people who know me IN REAL LIFE, I hide it.



* My basement mate. Sure, we only share the kitchen & bathroom, but it PISSES me off that he leaves the seat up constantly, and the kitchen is constantly dirty with his dishes. What does he think I am? His fucking mother? Jesus!!!



* Being female. I get soooo fucking sick of the mood swings, Bloating, break-outs, bitchiness, headaches, and the fucking "monthly visitor"



That's all for now:)

I'm sooo sick of hearing about the states....but now it looks like there is reason to worry about becoming LIKE the states...the way the health care system is run up there, I mean.

Well, I made a new friend today:) I'm glad, but now my boyfriend wants me to move in with him, & I'm scared of doing it because I just got settled here in Lindsay, & it's in Bobcaygeon....I dunno. I'm gonna go view the place & make my decision from there....still, I'm nervous

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cadrewolf
23:49 Dec 05 2008

friends are good things

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Ok, I guess not even outcasts can like me...fuck ya then

It seems to me that everytime I look at people's profiles, their pictures are always depicting them with frowns or sneers on their faces....It's just kinda confusing to me

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LaceworkLacerations
17:42 Dec 14 2008

I smile in my pictures! Hee hee.



I've noticed that too. Angry lot, VR is sometimes. Haha.

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Well, once again, as it has been for the last 3 weeks, I have insomnia...I stay awake all night, & don't fall asleep until about 6 am, and then I sleep all day...This is rather detrimental to my recovery process, as I have groups @ the hospital that I have to attend 3 times a week, but I can't get up for them.....URG!

Ok, I went crazy today, and hacked up my arm....the most cutting I have ever done in one sitting....glass:) I barely felt it...I think I must've had an O.B.E.....I didn't even realize until I was all done cutting, and the blood was running down my arm.....I think I may have an issue.....