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I don't know why life is so complicated, but the only thing i can do is take in stride. Everyone tells me to take it day by day, and i already do that. i dont plan anything and do everything on the moment, unless it has to do with important things like my health. I stick to myself and don't bother anyone, i have only really close friends and i am very careful on how i choose them. i don't start fights, and i always work things out. I support my boyfriend in his decisions, and don't say anything even if they affect me. I miss him when we don't see each other, and i know it is hard to be in the Army, but i am going down that road to, so that really isn't an excuse. i don't lie to him about anything, and i talk to him about things that are really hard for me to talk about. He doesn't see how hard it is for me to deal with everything because i am pretty good at hiding my emotions. I guess that comes from not being able to talk to anyone and being by myself most of my life. i lived with my family just no one payed any attention to me. And i am not writing any of this for people to feel sorry for me, i just need some where to write that my parents won't find it, i guess. I don't know what i will do if i join the army before i am 18, because i can't move out on my state until i am done with my training and he is moving to a different state across country to go active. if he goes out there and i stay here and i join the army we won't see each other for 3 years. how can anyone deal with that. Has or can any of you deal with that. That's all for now. i can promise there will be more about all this later.

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jacbells
03:50 Dec 29 2009

Please leave a comment if you want. It may help me out, and i would appreciate it a lot

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I am so confused. how does anyone figure this stuff out, although i am getting there. I guess i am just so tired. Don't know ill figure it all out.