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Everyday that I am out of my relationship and out of my element for that matter, I feel renewed and stronger. Its amazing how leaning on another in a relationship all the time can actually weaken you gradually. Over the last 6 months roughly, I have felt and continued to feel this HUGE sense of growth and enlightenment. I dont know if my enlightenment pertains to everything and everyone around me or just me. I think its mostly me though, and I appreciate and take anything I can get. I cant say that its been easy or that I havent thought about how it would be easier to just go home and forget the whole thing. I just have this certainty in my gut that what I am doing is the right thing....for me and my kids especially. It has been literally YEARS since I have worked full time, and I was terrified at the thought of going back to it because I thought I couldnt do it. I am finding that the more days that pass, the better I get at it and the more capable I feel. I am starting to see just how much I can do on my own and that I dont need someone to be there with me or to do it for me. I think that I have needed to learn this for a LONG time and its just now coming to me. I think that maybe I just NOW allowed myself to be open to it and to hear it calling to me.