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i have never been with anyone,how sad is that im eighteen years old and i have never dated anyone while my sister has had who is younger i might add has had a couple serious boyfriends.i feel embaressed to admit this but i actually even signed up for a dating site onetime just because i wanted to meet someone.im a really shy person and not the easiest to make a conversation with and i dont know i guess i signed up on that one site because i just dont want to be alone i just want someone there in more than a friend way i guess im just wondering whether or not im gonna go my life without ever meeting anyone.i just want someone there i mean is that too much to ask?my cousin onetime wrote this one thing on a piece of paper and it said "im scared of dying alone"and i knew she ment she wondered if she was gonna have someone to call her own by her side and now that is one of my fears because i dont want to die without no ever meeting someone i mean that would suck to go out of life that way without someone to really love you unconditionally?maybe....i dont know im just kinda hoping that person will come along soon although im out of high school and dont really know anyone so what hope do i have of meeting anyone?well the chances dont seem too good i just hope against the odds i find someone.