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So here it is saturday night almost midnight and im wide awake thinking about anything and everything. Most importantly I cant stop thinking about him What could i possibly do to get him to cum bak? Im going insane! i wanna call him and tell him everything but i just cant! cos he isnt here He has no idea how much he means to me. He might of thought that he knew but he deffinately didnt. Then theres my friend She struggles alot with life jus like mi n i worry about her n love her heaps. i hope she realizes how truely loved she is by mi, it makes mi sad to think she wants to end her life sumtyms but I know that feeling though and with everything ive been through suicide thoughts are deffinately scary. But when i think about wanting to cut myself or commit suicide i think of how much i love her n my son =) , No one needs to know about my problems i can handle them on my own. .. My dad isnt doing so well either He has recently had surgery and im really worried about him ,he is so stressed. well....Next is pressure...i get pressured into alot and its usually by my family starting on mi n causing shit!!!! im over them why do i even bother????. it seems as much as i try to get along with mi family it gets thhrown bak in my face =( i jus want my family to be nice n normal for once buut it wont happen ...i am so ova knowing dat he is to blame for wot appe it makes mi angry he cheated his life =( these r juust random thoughts im having while thinking... I could go on and on and on but i wont.