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im ova everything i think im goin 2 take a break from everything not goin 2 contact any1 around mi im jus goin 2 talk to ppl on here n dats it





im so frkn angry atm im ova it everythin always frks up n no one cud give a frk so for now im sayin by to all my social life apart frm vr

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Minerva
11:23 Jun 22 2011

Aww Hope everything turns out well.

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i feel so alone and empty ..i kno i have plenty of friends n family around mi yet i feel so lonely ...i love my son to death but at tyms its hard without his dad everyday i look in his eyes n i see his dad =(





i hate how it hurts to look at my son but i cant help it i miss his dad so much and its not fair ....





atm im finding lyf hard ...just lyf in general,money,family,friends,sleeping n everythin jus seems lyk a daily battle =(

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harryboslem
10:25 Jun 22 2011

Please forgive my intrusion, but having read your comment, I felt a loneliness that seems deeply profound. Life can be bleak, physically painful, but it cannot hurt the soul. I hope this little poem can help you see the reality and the reason for existence.



Welcome To My World



Welcome to my world,

Steeped in all it's mystery,

Where magic fills your sails,

To speed you to your destiny,

Where lullabies are sung,

To take away your pains,

Step inside my world,

And let me be your friend.



My name is of no consequence,

Call me what you will,

Step inside my illusion,

Enhance my magic spell,

Go dancing through the daisies,

Or rest beneath the trees,

Inhale the breath of nature,

Become a part of me.



I am an incantation,

I am born from a sound,

And if you listen very closely,

You can hear me on the wind,

I float among the butterflies,

To douse the dragon's breath,

I keep my world enchanted,

Here there is no death.



Share my immortality,

In here we are eternal,

All life here is sanctified,

Endurance is conditional,

Prepare for the enlightenment,

To which your heart percieves,

The secrets of the universe,

Are housed within me.



Sail my ships of wonder,

Across my oceans, blue,

Fly the wind on angel's wings,

And the truth will come to you,

Look all around you,

And watch the mystery unfold,

You hold the secret knowledge,

Within your heart of gold.



So ponder with your own mind,

A vision of your heart,

It beats with the love of life,

With a blow from Cupid's dart,

Fear me not, I'll do you well,

If you let my truth be told,

I am you and you are me,

We are as one, your soul.



borloff



Again, forgive the intrusion, this I send to you to let you know that even strangers can care, and not as a promotion of my little hobby of writing poems.

Take care, you are an angel, and your little angel needs you.

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my heart breaks for you the part you once sat is now hollow n empty i miss you so much dis mornin i woke up crying ,as my voice croaks my face soaks with the tears dat i cry over you . somedays i hate you but on days like 2day i really miss you =( my life is soo dark without your smile to lighten up my day ,if only u cud cum back just so i can see ur smile to help mi get thru 2day i miss you babe n its not fair i have to feel dis pain day after day its like a knife stabbing into my heart n makin mi gush out with blood =( only if one thing cud bring you back but ther is none =(..its a bit like twilight wen bella does stuff to hear edward yell at her well sumtyms i do stufff u hated hoping 2 here you yell at mi but it doesnt happen all tho you cud be a cunt at tyms you were way to easy 2 love =(

Well. I've been feeling a little bit down for the past few days or so. I think it doesnt help that I'm missing my partner that passed on 5 months ago.... Im ova having to deal with fukwits and seeing certain people every day. & I've been feeling helpess & alone. It's not a good feeling, persay, but just not as easy as before. I don't know, it's hard to explain. It was just kind of nice. But then it all came crashing down a couple of days ago & I'm right back where I started.

Has that ever happened to anyone before? You don't really know why, but you're just feeling as depressed as u were at the beginning, & then the second something reminds u it gets worse and i just lose every bit of that feeling? It's like there's no escape. For months I've felt this way, & when for whatever reason I'm not feeling as bad as before, it all goes away.

I think part of the reason I've been feeling a little better is because I'm getting closer with that friend of mine who I've been wanting to talk to about this but have been too afraid to try. & it's just... really nice talking to her. Because even though she has no idea when I'm feeling really depressed,s he always makes me feel better. & I trust her alot. & I didnt really think she wud be there for me but she is n I decided to tell her everything, Which was a huge comfort. i love her to death

Its in a humans nature to look for happiness isn't it?

And even if you find it. you will always look for something else.

Always.

I'm no different.

I'm selfish for being depressed because compared to other people, my life is a dream.

I feel guilty and ashamed because of my selfishness and this makes me even more depressed.

It's a never ending circle of feelings that will always have the same result.

I don't want to be alive.

But then again, I don't want to die either.

What do I want?!

The thought of leaving everyone I love and fading out of existence scares me shit less.

Both the thought of living and dieing are unbearable to me (which is probably why I've tried a number of tyms to take my life, and I've thought about it more then once).