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i had this guy who i loved and he was never there when i told him i had to into the hospital and that i might not come out he brushed it off and i don't even think he was listening to me. he was either drinking, i don't have a problem with him drinking but when he went from drinking one every two months to a 6 pack everyday i got worried, or playing on his dam computer. i could have died and he wouldn't have noticed until he got horny!! so i cheated on him with a friend b/c my friend cared and i needed some one who cared...needless to say my bf broke up with and if i could go back and change it i would stop myself from cheating on him!! but now when i thought i found a new guy...i found out that guy is brothers with my ex....i can't win for losing!! some one fucking shoot me, i am so tired of this shit, i wish i could leave and never come back.....but until then i hate my life and i wil always hate my life.