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I wasn't really looking for this site tonight. Nor was I intending to log onto it when I found it, for some reason, I decided to anyway. A lot has changed since I was last on here and I can't really share most of it. I can just say that I am unsure about what is really happening anymore. I think I am making the right decisions, but at the same time I feel like I am ignoring any emotions that I don't agree with. Living my life has always been one of my greatest dreams, but if I am truly living, why do I feel so alone?