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I have decided that I really need to start taking better care of myself. Somebody who I just met on Saturday was really getting into my face about it while we were in a 'psychic circle'. I was put off by her at first, feeling somewhat attacked by her. The more I think about it, I think the reason I was put off and having an attitude was because deep down I knew she was right.



The other people in the circle I knew and while not as straightforward and harsh, they did agree with her.



So I have decided that I'm going back on Marilu Henner's program. I have her book "30 Day Total Health Makeover" and I've decided to do that again. The only glitsch is that I can't eat soy, but I know there are dairy replacements made with rice that I can use instead of the soy products.



One thing that also came up in the circle is that I really need to pamper myself. I have always had trouble with this, feeling that I don't deserve it. What happens in our childhood that makes us grow up into adults and beat ourselves up? I don't get massage, pedicures, manicures, expensive clothing, etc. The reason I don't is because for some reason I've always felt unworthy. Why would anyone want to do anything for me? I think this is a much bigger issue and I think I'll tackle it later on.



For now, I've decided I'm going to take better care of myself by eating healthy, giving up nicotine, caffeine, dairy, sugar, getting proper sleep, and taking salt baths on a regular basis. Maybe I'll even start exercising again. Before I can expect others to treat me better, I need to treat myself better.



So, just a warning, I may be real 'special' the next few days as I start breaking my addictions. Please don't take it personal if I'm bitchier than usual this week.

For those that knew me 3 years ago, I've come a long way. At that time, I was so shy and introverted that I wouldn't even look anyone in the eye and always hid behind my husband.



Since then, I've gotten divorced, completed training to become a certified massage therapist, and obtained my Reiki Master Teacher.



In the last couple of months, I've started my own massage practice. Tomorrow I'll be meeting with the Milwaukee Iron (arena football) to work out a deal to be the team's massage therapist.



Now, for another giant step into the unknown, I'm creating and facilitating my first aromatherapy workshop this Saturday.

Am I scared? Yes.

Am I petrified? Hell yes.

Is it something that I feel I must do? Absolutely.



Until the next great step into the uknown, Blessed Be!

So, I'm reading and working through Silver Ravenwolf's new book on Hedgewitchery. My friends and I are taking it slow, doing a section a month. This month's focus is Wind. So now I am to comtemplate the meaning of Wind and how I relate to it.



January in Wisconsin leads one to associate wind with one thing--COLD!



However, trying to cast aside the obvious...



To me, I relate it to the old term "Winds of change". I see it as blowing away old habits and other things that are no longer useful to me, just as it removes the dead leaves from the trees. It is about cleaning up parts of my life that have become decayed, preparing them for a hibernation period and a fresh start.



For those who read this and have something to add, please leave a comment. I welcome opinions and constructive criticism. Blessed Be!