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This is it, no turning back.
05:30 Nov 01 2005
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This is it, I can' deny what I've always known I was. My true being has always been the dark person that belives in the goth. And the culture of the vampire. For years I have spent my time and energy to please everbody, from my mom to teachers. As I grew older my bosses, my co-workers, my ex-wife. And the list can go on forever.

As time marches on, and I inch closer to 42 years of age. I cannot keep the masqarade going. I have had a realasation that if I don't do it know I never will. I now am single, no kid's live with me, and I have to do this to be true to me for a change. Support for me is 0 at this point, My sister said don't be rediculus. Your to old. You will look like a fool to everybody.

So I must decide. Should I make everybody happy still, and be as sad and lonely as I have felt for the last 30 years. Or the hell with them. And spend what time I have left true to me, And possibly find the happiness that this place has denied me for so long.

So from this day, The day of the dead, I shall arise. This is it, no turning back.

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