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...but I can't because I have this stupid project due tomorrow morning. Why do I always put things off to the last minute? *grumble*



NANDA, related to's and manifested by's are driving me frickin crazy...then add the interventions and evaluations of said interventions...ugh



Homework=self inflicted torture

I've moved to Jersey about three and half years ago and every so often it still hits me, man...I live in Jersey. But what hit me the other night on my way home was that yeah, I live in Jersey, but life is still the same. I go to work, I go to school, I visit with my friends. Same job, different friends with the same problems. It doesn't matter where I live, life goes on, just with different faces. So that's the first epiphany.



Second light bulb...When I moved here I thought this would be it. This is where I'd stay. But, the longer I live here the more I know this isn't where I belong. This place is just a launching pad. It was a safe place to move. A place where I had a safety net. Now, I'm just restless, I can't wait to get out.



Next moment of clarity...I am never satisfied, never. I always want better or more. I get done with projects and then immediately want to move on to something more difficult. I can see room for improvement in almost any situation in my life. In one respect this is a good thing, it drives me to do better. But, it makes me wonder if I'll ever be content.



And finally...I feel like the timing of my life is off. I'm either two steps behind or five steps ahead. Most days it makes me want to just stop and stand still to see if the cosmos comes into alignment. Standing still isn't the answer. I can't stand in the middle of a crossroads and wait for what's coming down the other path to find me. Whatever it is will have to meet me at another cross street. I'm done waiting, I'm done stagnating. I'm moving on.



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KCRC
20:37 Feb 03 2008

Just don't go and get "Big Hair" and become a true "Jersey Girls"!

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faeriemoon
03:47 Feb 05 2008

Trust me, I've already been through the big hair craze. It's waaaay to much work. :p I'm a wash and go kinda girl now, with big hoop earrings :D

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...I just hope you know you are one the right men at the wrong time. Actually, the most right man at the most wrong time ;) and I appreciate you having made it very easy for me to be ok with that. I'm so proud and happy to call you friend, may we never lose that. :)