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How everything comes crashing down

When you can't see beyond your fears

How the frustration continues to build

When you create your own tears

We must all learn to let go of ourselves

To embrace the monster within

We must all learn to love ourselves

And quiet the negative din

It is only when we see beyond our walls

True peace and love will reside

Only when we walk another's path

Will we truly learn to rejoice



Fm 8-30-08

How do I shed this cage of skin?

Let shine through the girl within.

Plenty mistakes I've made.

But my life I'd never trade,

The joys and sorrow, even tragic heartbreak.

It has made the woman I am today.

Yet I still have moments I'm unsure,

Not positive if on the road of life,

I've made the right turns.

But my journey has been my own.

I have stories which can only be told,

In hushed whispers to friends of old.

Moments in the sun where I've shone.

Spaces in darkness only I can recall.

Maybe I've no need to shed this skin.

Only learn to embrace the woman, once girl, within.



Fm 8-29-08

My days seem dreary

Now back at home

The days are weary

And I'm all alone



The excitement is over

My travel is done

Right back to the grind

My days of fun all gone



But I wouldn't trade a moment

For the sights I have seen

A month of constant movement

Experiences I'd only dreamed



I walked a famous city

Full of joy and a bit of despair

I marveled at the history

And all that's happened there



I danced the streets of shire

Ribbons braided in my locks

A time of courts and maidens

Where chivalry is still in stock



I flew across the country

To family and friends delight

Faces I have longed to see

Never enough time, my plight



One more day I had left

Old love many years past

Part of my childhood I saw

Only to let go with a breath



So many faces I've seen

A summer not soon to forget

The memories I'll always cherish

But now, my friends, I must rest



Fm 8-29-08

When I said I'd come

I tempted fate



When you held me close

You tempted fate



When we clasped our hands

We tempted fate



When we shared a laugh, a drink, a kiss

We tempted fate



When you asked and I said yes

We tempted fate



When we had only a day

The Fates granted

Our temptation



Fm 8-29-08

I want to live with no regrets,

But it seems my life is always a mess.

Tangled up in things I shouldn't be.

I was only being me,



My conscience is clear but for your worries.

I would never cause you pain or trouble,

Nothing to gain but, risk the loss of you.

I can't go through that again.



I refuse to risk the life you've built,

Or put your happiness on the line.

How could I ever tear your world apart?

When it would mean the destruction of mine.



So I'll walk this path along side you,

Only wishing I could hold your hand.

But knowing eyes which are watching,

Would never understand.



How we came to this place and time,

For one simple day experienced the divine.

I will cherish your touch, your kiss,

The love we made, and a moment of bliss.



But my lips are sealed with your kiss love,

My heart contained in respect for her,

For the love you already hold so dear.

No my love, I would never tear it asunder.



Fm 8-28-08

I have not the patience

To stir in my mind

The essence of creation

And the passage of time



I have only the moments

Of times which have passed

Snippets I hang on to

Just within my grasp



I ponder these flashes

Pictures in my mind

Sleep calls to my conscience

In my dreams I rewind



Fm 8-27-08

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birra
19:46 Aug 27 2008

That... was awesome!



Wow. Truly outstanding.

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Somewhere in the darkness

In the depth of dreams

You knew

I have always loved you



Fm 8-27-08

A love thought lost is found again.

How our lives are different yet the same.

We stepped back in time.

Saw the possibilities of a different line.

The day will ever be ours.

And the rain will never be the same.



Fm 8-27-08

A lesson taught with fire

Only leaves a student

Timid of the flame



Remaining cold and shaking

With a bodies need

To stay warm



Another teacher may try

But of the lesson

She'll be ever wary



Her stubborn refusal

Makes sympathy turn

To pity and apathy



Was it really her fault?

She was burned first

By trusting her heart



Fm 8-22-08

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birra
19:04 Aug 22 2008

I still don't understand how you only have 5 faithful readers of your journal and some of these others... are.. just... FEH, yet are on hundreds of favorites lists.



Excellent writing. Simply excellent.

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How love can tear us apart.

Yet put us back together.

It rips and shreds our heart.

And sews it up all the same.

The one who loves shows the scars.

But continues to hide the pain.

I want to be torn apart.

And patched back together.



Fm 8-21-08

How I turn myself

Inside out

With never ending doubt



Fm 8-7-08

The pulse of the music,

Moves the rhythm of my heart.

Enters my every fiber,

Makes me yearn for more.

My heart rate quickens,

To match the tempo of the beat.

My body moves of its own volition.

I sway and move my feet.

Time has disappeared.

There is only this moment.

My drink never empties.

And I take no notice.

Them someone grabs my hand,

Says it is time to go.

The pause makes me aware,

Of the empty cup in my hand.

How many have I had,

To make my head swim so?

It doesn't matter now,

It is time to move.

Move away from the music,

Move away from the dance.

But the feeling doesn't leave me.

My heart is still quickened,

By the sounds in my head.

The music moved me that night.

And I shall not soon forget,

How it entered every muscle,

And let me lose control.



Fm 8-6-08

Share with me,

All of what you are,

And desire to be.



Show me your journey.

I want to walk,

Where you have tread.



Let me see the world,

Through the vision,

Of your eyes.



Help me understand,

What justice means,

In your mind.



Let me in.

I would never damage,

Such a precious soul.



Try me.

Trust in your heart,

It is the right thing.



Believe me.

I never want to cause,

Your tears of pain.



Fm 8-5-08

Looking up to a sky of stars.

I wonder what would I see,

If I could only move closer.

Would their light be brighter?

Or their colors clearer?

Would it solve my curiosities?

Or just add to my ponder?

Are they really just gaseous balls?

Or could they really be,

The jewels they seem?

Placed so carefully in the sky,

For us to see.



Fm 8-5-08