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this is why the world scares me
12:54 May 27 2011
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it scares me that beautiful has come down to women or worst children feeling that they have to make themself beautiful. not only that but to feel that they are worth something they have to beautiful in the worlds eyes.









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not allowed in haunted areas
12:29 May 20 2011
Times Read: 465

why i am not allowed to go to haunted areas.. sucks.



so i'm a person that lives for a few thrills. yes i know it's dumb i shouldn't go looking for trouble. but what is life with out a few bumps in the road.



anyways my boyfriend took me on a date to a haunted navy ship that was in the pearl harbor bombing. so naturally i'm like oooohw a haunting that sounds fun. i've never been on a ghost hunt. besides my old haunted back yard when i lived in ny. so i went for it thinking it would be some good fun. ha ha ha... i never made it passed the deck..



we walked around the deck then my bf walked up to a dour and looked into the window. so i go cool a look in side so i walk up to the dour. before i even get a look the lock on the dour slams down and i jump back just in time not to get hit by it. we both look at it. my bf then lifts the lock back up and make sure it's secured and wont fall again. to be reminded that this lock was rusty and hard to move because it was so old. so i walk back up to the dour to take a look again feeling confident it wouldn't happen again. but that's not my luck. so the lock feel once again. and i had to jump back to avoid yet another attack from the door’s lock.



since then my bf wont take me back to the ship because he and my friend who are both psychics say that i attract to much attention from ghost.

end of the world
11:35 May 20 2011
Times Read: 472

do to the end of the world tomorrow i know many will be rising to the havens in the raptures and will no longer be needing their worldly positions. there for i a sinner on the earth who will not be joining you in the raptures will be more then glad to take any worldly positions that you will no longer be needing.



however if you are not taken in the rapture tomorrow i can not guarantee that your will be able to get your worldly positions back. though i will promise that your stuff will be taken care of and in good hands XD~ Ha Ha thank you very much.





((just a little fun to humor the end of the world prediction tomorrow. I truly hope that this is only just another false prediction buy another crazy religious nut. But if you want to get rid of your worldly positions just in case I will still be willing to take any donations. Lol jk ^^))

This is My Paranormal Journal 1#
14:17 May 19 2011
Times Read: 477

paranormal, to most it would seem that this is just group that makes up things because they can not except the world they live in or they are not satisfied with the world. i wish that was only true. the paranormal world does not just stop with ghost, daemons, and things that only appear out of the corner of your eye. no this modern day paranormal is just a add on to all the myths and ledgons that have been passed down though the centuries. the only thing we have to ask is how did they all start.



i have a belief that everything is true to a cretin extent and that the truth does not need to be fact. for one mans truth may be another mans lie. there for i hope that everyone learns to be open minded so that they may learn to see other peoples truths.



so here is mine.....



i am currently 22 years old. all my life i have had to work and fight to get where i am today. i have never really had it easy. as a child i was raised by a stick religious father and a oblivious mothers that was more worried about her appearance. so paranormal was not something that was talked about in the house. to put it simply it was evil.



so when i started to relies that i was witnessing two different worlds it was a bit difficult. at first i was on the page that it was all evil and i was going to hell for something i had no control over. but then i though how can it be evil when it is just something that is there. kind of like a person's hand. the hand it's self is not evil but what the person does with it is. so from then on i tried to be open minded about it.



well i should back up a little and explain how the whole paranormal thing came into my life. to state with i have always seen things, but as a child you don't understand that others don't see what you see so you think if no one else is paying attention to it then it must not be important right. well it should of ended right there like most children, where it disappears from there life and they grow up and never think of it again. but not me...



as a child when i lost my parents i didn't start crying instead i summoned there aura energy to myself so that i could follow it back to them. i didn't play princes barbies. i was the powerful mage knights ((not knowing what a mage or anything like that was)). and when i was left home alone i wasn't afraid of people breaking into the house i was locked in the bathroom cabinet with all the lights in the house on and the music blasting because there was something in the house i could not see but i could sense.



but even then i didn't understand what was truly happening. i was only a child after all. it wasn't until it picked up from there that i stated to relies i more then just different from the other kids. And this is where it starts. Ghost where just the beginning of things. But when the foresight came it was just a bit to much. It was like nothing was real. i would see something in my daydream or dream and then it would happen in real life down to the last word, I would finish peoples sentences and they would say “how did you know I was going to say that“. Ha if I only knew then that the weird meter could go higher.



I ended up telling my parents and they both pushed it aside like I was crazy. But not just crazy but a threat to there image so everything was brushed under the table and I was told not to talk of it again. So taking my parents example I tried to push it all away. Worst think I have ever done in my life. It was like I was killing off a part of me like cutting a limb off. It hurt so much for weeks. I felt like I was missing something that was part of me, like I wasn’t a complete person anymore, it was almost a feeling like I was killing myself by trying to get rid of this curst of foresight and ghost sight. So I had to give up on getting ride of it.



So I decided I would just live with it. If I see something I would pretend I didn’t see it. Try to act normal. It was hard especially when a hand would appear out of no where and grab my shoulder. But I could deal with it and cover it up with lies. Well lies wont cover up everything



Next my parents separated one of the best days in my life. It was good till the grandparents kicked us out of their house. that’s when things went from bearable to I couldn’t fake it anymore. One of my most wonderfully generous (sarcasm) aunts so nice to let us move into one of her apartments (a building that was so decrepit it should have been burned for it’s own safety but that’s not even the bad part). The day we where moving in I look up into the forest that was behind the apartment and senses very dark energy. My mother pushed it off as my child imagination. I wish it would of ended there. But luck was never one of my best qualities. As time went by things got worst.

First it started with a feeling in the middle of the night like I was being called into the forest. No voices just a feeling that felt like words. Being at leas lucky enough to be well grounded in my mind I resisted the feeling and spent the night with a pillow over my head getting no sleep praying that it would end and that I could go back to not being crazy.



Next I started seeing black figures walking around the forest and my house among other things. It wasn’t to bad till they started attacking and leaving bruise. A few friends would ask about them, then they would just say that I had probably done it in my sleep and not known about it till I proved that the bruise marks didn’t mach my hands as many of the burses looked like hand prints.



Things did get better however. A new semester started in school and in one of my classes was this guy sat close to me. Now normally I ignored everyone and kept to myself I was easier to get through the day. But I got partnered with him in a project so I had to work with him so I turned to him to talk about the project and that’s when it happened his eyes just seemed to have a glow to him and it felt like he was reading me. I don’t know how I knew that but I know now that it is possible to read and understand a person’s aura. I pondered that situations for weeks and then came to a decision. I would take this guy into the forest with me and if there was anything there then it would prove that I was not crazy and that I could sense things like him reading me and the dark things that lived in the forest. I believed he was like me and could see things too so I knew he would agree to come. But if he declined or he did not see what I did in the forest then I would be crazy and check myself in. this might have been a smart idea.



Well I caught up with him after school as him and his friends always hung out in the same area. So I asked him in front off all his friends and said that they could come to because I did not feel It was safe up there and the bigger the group the safer it might be. Thankfully my plan worked and him and his friends all decided to come and come that day. This is where it gets fun. As we walked up the forest I stayed quiet. I did not want to put anything in there heads for I wanted to know for sure that I was not the only one that could see things and if I told them and then they thought they seen something then it might not be true. As wee walked one of the girls points out a dark shadow walking down the hill moving like it was trying to stay hidden. The a few of them commented that they could feel a lot of energy that did not feel like it belonged in the forest. As we got up the hill we stopped at a small opening where just one tree was. It was much wider then what most of the trees there where but it was only half a tree as it had been cut and the other half of it laid on the ground. There was more energy there then there had been in most of the forest. Though no one had seemed worried they thought it might be a good place to rest and also explore the energy. That was a mistake. We explored and one of the girls found a bone we explored more and felt the energy in the area pick up. We brushed it off as we had just stirred up a little of the natural energy that was there. The guy I had ask to come said there was something weird about the tree. Next one of the girls grew weak and almost fainted. Her boyfriend held on to her so she wouldn’t fall. but next to her two very defined footprints appeared next to her on the ground. At that point the energy in the forest seemed to open up to us feeling threatening high and we could feel a greater energy source coming our way. We ran out of the forest.





I went up a few more times many being on my own a few less with other people each time no one was able to stay long before feeling sick of running out with the feeling of being chased. My experiences with the forest never ended wile I was there I continued to walk up with bruises or even to be awake and watch as things grabbed my arm so hard they left bruises. It was frightening and I learned many things. Like how to manipulate energy to create shields to protect ones self from attacks. But those are more stories I will tell later on. Maybe if you ask. But remember this is my story of what has happened to me don’t judge as this is my truth and may not be yours.

journals are boring!! but we do them anyway.
02:32 May 18 2011
Times Read: 481




ok my first journal. first I’m only doing it because the site seems to demand i do something so here is something.. whatever that might be. hmm lets see. why do blogs and tweets and journals seem so popular in today’s societies. instead of just talking people have to post silly little blogs to get attention. i really don't understand the whole crave about it. anyone want to help me out and tell my why it's such a bit thing!